This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I sat in the swamp with a little pink piggy
Who loved roller-skating and playing pretend
The boy that she loved was a real snackmaster
The world was a beach ball and we were all friends
Then he died alone and the last time I saw her
It looked like the reaper had rapped on her door
She said "Do you remember singing ice ice baby with me
Laying down on the reef bathroom floor?"
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
Jimmy and Johnny just stare at each other
While their mother hangs in the Holiday Inn
Your funeral on your son's seventh birthday
Is the worst thing you could ever give him
I bet he'd like flowers, balloons, and a card
"Unconditionally yours, all my love, from your mom"
Much more than wearing that little black suit
And saying goodbye forever to you
I haven't forgotten the times that I teased you
And everyone else pointed at you and laughed
Permanent damage was not my intention
But I could not foresee the aftermath of my actions
I was so small
Wanted to grow in the eyes of my enemies
For awhile I felt tall
But they knocked me back down now I'm here on my knees
Looking at my face in a bed of pine needles
And wondering if anyone stills knows my name
I turned full circle and another half circle
And tried to go back the same way that I came
"Look alive Dawson, your heels are dragging
I never knew anyone could move so slow
You may be a hotshot now, but you are still a cow
A big fat F, why don't you just go home?"
I guess that that means I did not make the team
I'll just lay on the ground and look up at the trees
The old bedford oak, the tall evergreens
This is not a joke, this is not a dream
Not sleeping, just resting in pieces that I wish were peaches
I saw your dad later that day
Maybe he shot himself, could've been someone else
Asked me to tell you what he had to say
"You don't have to end up with people who self destruct
Go find a lover who will never leave
Fear of abandonment, self hate, and discontent
Will go away when you let yourself grieve
And forget about me, forget about me, forget about me"
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
Who loved roller-skating and playing pretend
The boy that she loved was a real snackmaster
The world was a beach ball and we were all friends
Then he died alone and the last time I saw her
It looked like the reaper had rapped on her door
She said "Do you remember singing ice ice baby with me
Laying down on the reef bathroom floor?"
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
Jimmy and Johnny just stare at each other
While their mother hangs in the Holiday Inn
Your funeral on your son's seventh birthday
Is the worst thing you could ever give him
I bet he'd like flowers, balloons, and a card
"Unconditionally yours, all my love, from your mom"
Much more than wearing that little black suit
And saying goodbye forever to you
I haven't forgotten the times that I teased you
And everyone else pointed at you and laughed
Permanent damage was not my intention
But I could not foresee the aftermath of my actions
I was so small
Wanted to grow in the eyes of my enemies
For awhile I felt tall
But they knocked me back down now I'm here on my knees
Looking at my face in a bed of pine needles
And wondering if anyone stills knows my name
I turned full circle and another half circle
And tried to go back the same way that I came
"Look alive Dawson, your heels are dragging
I never knew anyone could move so slow
You may be a hotshot now, but you are still a cow
A big fat F, why don't you just go home?"
I guess that that means I did not make the team
I'll just lay on the ground and look up at the trees
The old bedford oak, the tall evergreens
This is not a joke, this is not a dream
Not sleeping, just resting in pieces that I wish were peaches
I saw your dad later that day
Maybe he shot himself, could've been someone else
Asked me to tell you what he had to say
"You don't have to end up with people who self destruct
Go find a lover who will never leave
Fear of abandonment, self hate, and discontent
Will go away when you let yourself grieve
And forget about me, forget about me, forget about me"
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
How could I ever forget? I could never forget
I will never forget
Lyrics submitted by skyphilis
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I gather its about a friendship with a girl when she was younger . People made fun of them and Kimya turned on the girl. -I was so small. Wanted to grow in the eyes of my enemies- And after a while the kids that she was trying to impress went back to making fun of her.
-For awhile I felt tall but they knocked me back down now I'm here on my knees- I also gather that the girl had problems with her father. Something like that perhaps.