Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
until I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of me


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    "hold me now i need to feel complete, like i matter to the one i need." hurts me when i hear it,I miss our hugs, how she fit perfectly into my arms.. you feel complete. but she knew its only gonna hurt us more because I dont feel good enough for her. Trying to deal with my own shame of not feeling good enough, in the process runining everything she gave me and i didnt see it, her gift. If i wasnt so afraid of being happy, her and I would have been everything to eachother. But i lied, betrayed and i lost what mattered to me the most...her, Im ashamed of myself for hurting her. i broke my heart which broke hers. She desurves a lot better then me. Realizing what what i lost i cant help but feel ashamed, i was on the wrong side of it all. Here i thought she needed me...in truth i needed her.

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