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I was looking down at you
Smiling up at me
For once I held you tight
But shadowed hands grabbed at me
Your head was in the clouds
Now those clouds are in your head
That's when you needed me
So I listened to what you said

Look another year went bye
They keep passing by
God damn I didn't even die
Too old and slow I have grown
I fought time but lost

It was love like a callus
You scarred enough to be
Tough and immune
Your body adapts, you see
To all above my head
and all below my feet
No, that's one freedom you will never take from me

To criticize and judge
How did I end up here
With these standards I'm forced to love
Make me disappear (hold tight)

Lyrics submitted by christsizeshoes, edited by zealant, sinkingboat

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    General CommentThe reason why Dredg is so amazing is that Gavin works on paradoxes and layers, especially in this album.
    In the first part of the song, he says that love is a freedom. And later, he said that he was forced to love.
    "For once I held you tight, but shadowed hands grabbed at me." He holds on to the (whatever), and something else holds on to him when he does it. Almost as though he were holding onto himself, as though not to lose the self (Dredg has a lot to do with the spiritual journey).
    Another paradox: love like a callous. Callouses come from a whole lot of work and pain and strife, so you can no longer feel pain in that area of your body. So does love mean you no longer feel someone's pain? Or does Gavin mean you feel the pain, but you don't suffer? That would go well with Bhuddist enlightenment: "pain is mandatory. Suffering is optional."
    Another note: Dredg has much to do with opposites and halves. Notice the paintings that go with the songs and how each song talks about two sides of things. Well, this song seems to be no different. Listen to the first part of the song. Happy joyous rapture from the instruments and singing harmonious voice, but at the same time, the lyrics are incredibly sad (paradox). And then the second half of the song is composed of incredibly sad acoustics and then as far as lyrics go: SILENCE. Enlightenment is about achieving peace of mind, and to end in a silent beginning.
    Oh, I could go on and on.
    sckiskaddo21on April 21, 2007   Link
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    General CommentSo amazing..
    USteppinon May 04, 2005   Link
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    General CommentBest vocals in the entire album.
    Amandakittyon May 12, 2005   Link
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    General CommentWhat an amazing song. One of Dredg's best. Truely shows their softer side.
    BullzEye101on May 17, 2005   Link
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    General CommentTo me,
    this song means a guy who's regret of his chance to get a lover in his passed life
    he planned to go back at the earlier time...(maybe by using the time machine) "Make me disappear hold tight.."

    err... no matter what... I always lose my sadness and go smiling happy whenever i play this song on my ipod

    dredgloveron June 20, 2005   Link
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    General CommentYou have no idea what you're talking about, or understand the band, for that matter. Look at the motives for this album. "El Cielo" sold 20,000 copies at most. The band was given one more shot to make a successful album. "Catch Without Arms" is really an album to keep dredg alive, and it is necessary to expand to a broader fan base by changing the songs to be more open to a larger audience. I've seen it happen: tons of people who didn't give a crap about "El Cielo" actually liking "Catch Without Arms". And "Catch Without Arms" is by no means a compromise of their sound. It's a very good album by the standards that modern music has sunk to. Sure, it's no "El Cielo" or "Leitmotif", but it's a great album. I do agree this track is one of the weaker ones, except for the instrumental section at the end. But the album evens out with the amazing tracks like "Ode to the Sun", "The Tanbark is Hot Lava", "Bug Eyes", and "Sang Real".
    atomsplitteron July 13, 2005   Link
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    General Commentatom has a good point. I wouldn't be so quick to write this song off though. If you don't expect anything of it, it delivers in spades. It's not dredg's typical style, but I think it's a testament to them as a band that they can write and pull off so beautifully this almost 'pop' sounding song. Lovely stuff if you ask me, even if it isn't 'proper' dredg.
    pignolion July 31, 2005   Link
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    General Commenti 100% disagree with atomsplitter and nopoetic. i thought the old dredg albums were ok, but this latest one, "Catch without arms," is amazing. i think it is much more refined, beautiful, and thoughful. The song "catch without arms" goes through my head over and over and the piano solo in "bug eyes" is one of the most beautiful things i've ever heard.
    antibateron October 03, 2005   Link
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    General CommentI think that people are too quick to write off newer music. Just because it's new or the songs are shorter or harder or whatever the case may be, doesn't mean that the music has been compromised. In an interview, Gavin, the singer, has said that the band worked on this album more, they care more about the writing, they tried harder, they wanted a great album and they feel that they got that. It's easy to start with an album like Leitmotif or El Cielo and just become so attached to it that you almost feel like you shouldn't like the new music as much, but give it a chance.
    This song isn't very "dredg" but I think that's what makes it interesting. To me it is a very touching song, I can't exactly get what the meaning is, but I know it has made me feel connected to it. I love the simile "love like a callous", for some reason it just calls to me. And when Gavin says "Hold tight" it gives me strength, it reaffrims the fact that I have something to do on this Earth and that if I just "hold tight" I will be able to accomplish something great.
    I also enjoy the "I've fought time but lost" part. I think everyone at some point feels like that.
    Like I said, I don't know what Gavin's meaning behind the song was, but those are some of the things I can identify with. Since the title is Matroshka, those little Russian dolls, it could possibly play on the idea of many facets; things within things.
    seeyouauntie413on November 07, 2005   Link
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    General CommentLook, another year went by
    They keep passing by
    God damn, I didn't even die
    Too old and slow I've grown
    Well, I fought time but lost

    perfect, so fucking perfect!!!!!! and the way he sings it, this and triangle favorite songs of dredg!

    and this i think 2nd favorite phrase!

    u all stfu this bands is amazing, and the 3 albums are pretty good!
    ZakRoMon April 24, 2006   Link

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