the academy

I don’t keep a journal
cos I don’t have to write it down
To remember how I felt
Those day I couldn’t wipe the smile away

And I don’t take pictures
But maybe I should start
Cos my old friends have all become a blur
Just one giant happy face

I wish I’d have know
They’d break me in half
If given half a chance
And one nigh alone
Can be murder
On my confidence

Waking up late or
Not waking up at all
My alarm clock still holds a grudge
from the time I threw it at the wall

And everyone’s shifty
And everyone’s a con
But it’s the ones who’ve got nothing to sell
Make me the most uncomfortable

And all the best things I do
They happen by accident
And I don’t want to be
Part of this game
And I guess
That makes me blessed
Or cursed
But it’s all the same

And I won’t star in my movie
Because I can’t remember my lines
I thought I was a real scene-stealer
But the academy won’t know my name
Come award time

Spoken like a selfish
And egocentric prick
And when I think about the things I think
Sometimes
It kind of makes me sick