This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Once again, falling on the trail walking blind trade nothing
Discretion is low
It's hard to breath, taking yourself in honor I should know how low I can go
Before I go high, I'm very down
But I'll be going after it, again and again
You know I can't go the other way without being trashed lost and strung-out
When together try something going back to the question that's, "What will knock me out?"
Before I go high, I'm very down
And I'll be going after it, again and again
Come on
Maybe I should've fuckin' trashed my life
But for that I'm gonna turn to you
And the trashed people askin' my head until I sweat
Now tell me what the fuck to do
Why did it get to the point where I could do
Nothing but try and be strung-out on you
Let me drown, way deep down below
For the fleeting past to let go
Until the end I raise like a battering ram
Looking at my own reflection
Forever I shall kiss you goodbye
To kill my soul addiction
Before I walk I hit the ground
Then you know me for I get very down
Up yours and next you tell me, "Fucking whore"
And I'll be going after it, more and more
Why did it get to the point where I could do
Nothing but try and be strung-out on you
Let me drown, way deep down below
For the fleeting past to let go
Until the end I raise like a battering ram
Looking at my own reflection
Forever I shall kiss you goodbye
To kill my soul addiction
Discretion is low
It's hard to breath, taking yourself in honor I should know how low I can go
Before I go high, I'm very down
But I'll be going after it, again and again
You know I can't go the other way without being trashed lost and strung-out
When together try something going back to the question that's, "What will knock me out?"
Before I go high, I'm very down
And I'll be going after it, again and again
Come on
Maybe I should've fuckin' trashed my life
But for that I'm gonna turn to you
And the trashed people askin' my head until I sweat
Now tell me what the fuck to do
Why did it get to the point where I could do
Nothing but try and be strung-out on you
Let me drown, way deep down below
For the fleeting past to let go
Until the end I raise like a battering ram
Looking at my own reflection
Forever I shall kiss you goodbye
To kill my soul addiction
Before I walk I hit the ground
Then you know me for I get very down
Up yours and next you tell me, "Fucking whore"
And I'll be going after it, more and more
Why did it get to the point where I could do
Nothing but try and be strung-out on you
Let me drown, way deep down below
For the fleeting past to let go
Until the end I raise like a battering ram
Looking at my own reflection
Forever I shall kiss you goodbye
To kill my soul addiction
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