Do I look good for you tonight?
Will you accuse me as I hide
Behind these layers of disguise
In the mirrors of my own happiness?
I've loved the freedom of being inside
Need a new start and a different time
Something grows in the space between me
And it's twisting and changing this fragile body
And I wish I had been born a girl instead of what I am
Yes I wish I had been born a girl and not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
The censorship of my skin
Is screaming inside and from within
There's no room in this world for a girl like me
No place around there where I fit in
And I wish I had been born a girl instead of what I am
Yes I wish I had been born a girl and not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
Ooh
Will you accuse me as I hide
Behind these layers of disguise
In the mirrors of my own happiness?
I've loved the freedom of being inside
Need a new start and a different time
Something grows in the space between me
And it's twisting and changing this fragile body
And I wish I had been born a girl instead of what I am
Yes I wish I had been born a girl and not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
The censorship of my skin
Is screaming inside and from within
There's no room in this world for a girl like me
No place around there where I fit in
And I wish I had been born a girl instead of what I am
Yes I wish I had been born a girl and not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
And not this mess of a man
Ooh
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although Nicky wrote the song, the lyrics remind me of Richey:
"the censorship of my skin
is screaming inside and from within
there's no room in this world for a girl like me
and place around there where i fit in"
it's like how self-abuse is considered to be more of a feminine thing opposed to taking out your aggression on others is considered "manly" or masculine
this song is pretty much a "lament for having being born a boy" as Nigel Packer of the BBC news declares it
it feels like me in reverse, and I know a lot of transwomen identify with it.
I wish there was another version, for FTMs, even though it wouldn't make sense.
but I just want a song like this to listen to and know it's me, there aren't really many songs about transsexuals out there. :/