I believe this is another amazingly on point and nuanced commentary on the insanity that follows emotionally abusive relationships. The abuser has no anxieties, no emotional pain, or salience/memory for that matter, so the survivor appears to be the crazy one, obsessed with the abuse and that buzzword that seems to ignite arguments about diagnosing people without a degree, etc. funny how you say the words domestic violence, abuse, abuse survivor and boom the subject changes. Anyways, I especially relate to her midnights becoming afternoons, complex PTSD often leads to this phenomenon, whether due to purposeful sleep deprivation by the abuser, or just hyper vigilance associated with the PTSD, along with the fear of facing people, especially your loved ones, who
Never actually understand, even if they try, because all they see is you, on fire, screaming about the arsonist that no one ever sees, and who has been spreading lies about your alleged mental instability, deceptive personality, etc. the whole time. While the last thing survivors need is more blame, our society supports a narrative that blames the objectively innocent party because the blatantly guilty party has spent their entire lives fabricating a persona and we’re just being human, and human psychology is quite counterintuitive especially in the context of trauma. Look at Amber Heard. Vilified and not believed, regardless of what any abuse survivor could recognize as a fellow survivor instantly. But Johnny depp is a malignant narcissist, a man, and wealthy as all get out. It’s sick.
i think that i've been bested
cuz i find my sense of self is arrested
peace of mind is somewhere else
ive been gone so long
i think that i've invested
too much time into this i should have rested
now my time is so far gone
and im ill-prepared, unaware of real
"love"
too long this game too young
whoa, no
too late to bite my tongue
lost bets, no regrets - take it back, no way
i think i should have tested
with my toe i find that i am congested
with the water in my nose
i just dove right in
practice?
never have had a chance but i've thought i've wrecked it
beat myself up over a few run throughs
ran through youth, seeking truth in
"love"
too long this game too young
whoa, no
too late to bite my tongue
lost bets, no regrets - take it back, no way
i just might have infected
this cast of characters that i have elected
to be close to me with passion for
life and love
i think that i've perfected
the art of breaking through and i have re-checked it
not such a bad pursuit if you ask me.
still sometimes, i ask why, for
"love"
too long this game too young
whoa, no
too late to bite my tongue
lost bets, no regrets - take it back, no way
cuz i find my sense of self is arrested
peace of mind is somewhere else
ive been gone so long
i think that i've invested
too much time into this i should have rested
now my time is so far gone
and im ill-prepared, unaware of real
"love"
too long this game too young
whoa, no
too late to bite my tongue
lost bets, no regrets - take it back, no way
i think i should have tested
with my toe i find that i am congested
with the water in my nose
i just dove right in
practice?
never have had a chance but i've thought i've wrecked it
beat myself up over a few run throughs
ran through youth, seeking truth in
"love"
too long this game too young
whoa, no
too late to bite my tongue
lost bets, no regrets - take it back, no way
i just might have infected
this cast of characters that i have elected
to be close to me with passion for
life and love
i think that i've perfected
the art of breaking through and i have re-checked it
not such a bad pursuit if you ask me.
still sometimes, i ask why, for
"love"
too long this game too young
whoa, no
too late to bite my tongue
lost bets, no regrets - take it back, no way
Lyrics submitted by Blaupunked
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