The song lyrics were written by the band Van Halen, as they were asked to write a song for the 1979 movie "Over the Edge" starring Matt Dillon. The movie (and the lyrics, although more obliquely) are about bored, rebellious youth with nothing better to do than get into trouble. If you see the movie, these lyrics will make more sense. It's a great movie if you grew up in the 70s/80s you'll definitely remember some of these characters from your own life. Fun fact, after writing the song, Van Halen decided not to let the movie use it.
Why do I keep on doing this? It's not for me anymore
I'm doing this more for you than I
And on that lonely road to nowhere
I lost myself to something else
I don't know where I'm going or where I've been
It's so hard to remember all the things I am, am I?
It feels like the end is near, catching up with me
Catch me if you can, cause I'm going down into the ground
How much longer can I keep going on?
I can feel my lost ones coming down
Sooner than later I'll see you all again
I feel my purpose here slipping away
I see the sun, but it's raining
I hope I'm on my way to better things
And if I'm not, it doesn't really matter
Cause I am doing this more for you than I am me
I can no longer pretend, that my life is worth living
I, I would rather die, be dead again
Hold on
Now here it comes, death for one, for a lonely son
Up then down. I'm spinning around
My soul is so confused again
Am I floating towards the sun?
Hold on, am I dead on?
Through a tunnel of black, why?
Why do I feel so sad?
I've been waiting for the end of act 9 to come
The curtain must fall, the end of a song
But the song goes on and on
The light is so very strong
I'm drifting along, I have no will
I'm drifting still
In a room without walls, I feel the chill
No one is here to pick me up
Nothingness, what a mess, oh
Is anybody there?
Is anybody there? I'm talking to you, do you hear me?
If I could only see through the wall of nothingness
The wall of black
They gave me number 9, this is not like last time
Number 9
This time I am really losing my mind
I hear an orchestra, I see an orchestra
I greet an orchestra, I meet an orchestra
I'm in an orchestra, I am an orchestra
I kill this orchestra, I kill me? No
No don't stop, oh please don't stop
Hey say here, what's going on?, hey wait for me
I'm running but I can't keep up
Then I realize my feet are gone
This is such a weird weird song
The orchestra is now a door
One is one and two is four. I can see three more
Seven doors, seven doors
I must choose one before they're gone
But I cannot move, oh they are drifting away now
But I cannot move, oh they are drifting away now
I've got to reach that door, the number 6
I've got to reach that door, the number 6
The number 6-6, the number 6-6-6
The number 6-6-6
The number 6-6-6, that's my door
Wuauuu, look at all the colours
There goes an orchestra, no more doors
Close the window, here they come
I hear another end of this song
But again the song goes on
Dead again. I know cause I've been here before
I'm dead again, if I could only reach that door
The number 6-6-6, the number 6-6-6
I'm beginning to miss you again
Why can't I just get you out of my mind,
I must forget
Dead again. I know cause I've been here before
I'm dead again, if I could only reach that door
Through a purple mist the light is fading
I guess I'll have to stay dead
A little longer this time
Dead again,
I'm doing this more for you than I
And on that lonely road to nowhere
I lost myself to something else
I don't know where I'm going or where I've been
It's so hard to remember all the things I am, am I?
It feels like the end is near, catching up with me
Catch me if you can, cause I'm going down into the ground
How much longer can I keep going on?
I can feel my lost ones coming down
Sooner than later I'll see you all again
I feel my purpose here slipping away
I see the sun, but it's raining
I hope I'm on my way to better things
And if I'm not, it doesn't really matter
Cause I am doing this more for you than I am me
I can no longer pretend, that my life is worth living
I, I would rather die, be dead again
Hold on
Now here it comes, death for one, for a lonely son
Up then down. I'm spinning around
My soul is so confused again
Am I floating towards the sun?
Hold on, am I dead on?
Through a tunnel of black, why?
Why do I feel so sad?
I've been waiting for the end of act 9 to come
The curtain must fall, the end of a song
But the song goes on and on
The light is so very strong
I'm drifting along, I have no will
I'm drifting still
In a room without walls, I feel the chill
No one is here to pick me up
Nothingness, what a mess, oh
Is anybody there?
Is anybody there? I'm talking to you, do you hear me?
If I could only see through the wall of nothingness
The wall of black
They gave me number 9, this is not like last time
Number 9
This time I am really losing my mind
I hear an orchestra, I see an orchestra
I greet an orchestra, I meet an orchestra
I'm in an orchestra, I am an orchestra
I kill this orchestra, I kill me? No
No don't stop, oh please don't stop
Hey say here, what's going on?, hey wait for me
I'm running but I can't keep up
Then I realize my feet are gone
This is such a weird weird song
The orchestra is now a door
One is one and two is four. I can see three more
Seven doors, seven doors
I must choose one before they're gone
But I cannot move, oh they are drifting away now
But I cannot move, oh they are drifting away now
I've got to reach that door, the number 6
I've got to reach that door, the number 6
The number 6-6, the number 6-6-6
The number 6-6-6
The number 6-6-6, that's my door
Wuauuu, look at all the colours
There goes an orchestra, no more doors
Close the window, here they come
I hear another end of this song
But again the song goes on
Dead again. I know cause I've been here before
I'm dead again, if I could only reach that door
The number 6-6-6, the number 6-6-6
I'm beginning to miss you again
Why can't I just get you out of my mind,
I must forget
Dead again. I know cause I've been here before
I'm dead again, if I could only reach that door
Through a purple mist the light is fading
I guess I'll have to stay dead
A little longer this time
Dead again,
Lyrics submitted by Dr_Colossus
Dead Again Lyrics as written by Kim Bendix Aka King Diamond Petersen
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Fintage House Publishing
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