This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
It's what you want
It's your amphetamine
Another night you're settling
For comfort in your bed
The more you fill
The more you're empty
You're never what you should be
Here is why you're sad
You're miserable
When he is close
So take another drink
Another drink will numb those senses
And make the most
Of flesh and bones
If it helps you
To fall asleep
I'm watching you change
It doesn't have to be this way
It gets harder everyday
So you keep numb to feel safe
Fuck what you know
Can't you see its shallow?
Every time you swallow,
Do you get a taste of what you've become?
Regrets, they wake you in the morning
You shower but you're not clean
Please just listen
I still remember the days
When you didn't feel the need to escape
And every demon you never face
Is the reason you're not safe
Please understand that you've had every chance
You've had all the time
All the time in the world
You don't listen
It's your amphetamine
Another night you're settling
For comfort in your bed
The more you fill
The more you're empty
You're never what you should be
Here is why you're sad
You're miserable
When he is close
So take another drink
Another drink will numb those senses
And make the most
Of flesh and bones
If it helps you
To fall asleep
I'm watching you change
It doesn't have to be this way
It gets harder everyday
So you keep numb to feel safe
Fuck what you know
Can't you see its shallow?
Every time you swallow,
Do you get a taste of what you've become?
Regrets, they wake you in the morning
You shower but you're not clean
Please just listen
I still remember the days
When you didn't feel the need to escape
And every demon you never face
Is the reason you're not safe
Please understand that you've had every chance
You've had all the time
All the time in the world
You don't listen
Lyrics submitted by sacky
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personally this reminds me of my mom. alcoholic who is stubberon and doesnt realize that this effects both her the rest of the family. she drinks more when my dad gets closer.