The song lyrics were written by the band Van Halen, as they were asked to write a song for the 1979 movie "Over the Edge" starring Matt Dillon. The movie (and the lyrics, although more obliquely) are about bored, rebellious youth with nothing better to do than get into trouble. If you see the movie, these lyrics will make more sense. It's a great movie if you grew up in the 70s/80s you'll definitely remember some of these characters from your own life. Fun fact, after writing the song, Van Halen decided not to let the movie use it.
I've been lying awake at night
I've been hoping that I'm alright
I've been winding myself too tight
Wondering If I will sleep tonight
Never thought things would get like this
Always hoping that they'd work out
Still ingesting the wrong amount
Now I seem to be filled with doubt
I cannot stop this ride
I'm growing cold inside
I shouldn't let it slide
will sickness be mine
This should not be my weight to bear
Go on acting like I don't care
Stop this high --- I wouldn't dare
I have earned and deserve my share
Things like this happen every day
While I'm in there I feel okay
But you say I should go away
Let me go for just one more day
I cannot stop this ride
I'm growing cold inside
I shouldn't let it slide
will sickness be mine
I cannot stop this ride
I'm growing cold inside
I shouldn't let it slide
will sickness be mine
I've got to medicate myself, I'm not concerned about my health
It covers up what I've been dealt, it seems the only way
I've got to medicate myself, it's been the only thing that helped
Must cover up what I have felt, it seems the only way
I cannot stop this ride
I'm growing cold inside
I shouldn't let it slide
will sickness be mine
I cannot stop this ride
I'm growing cold inside
I shouldn't let it slide
will sickness be mine
Sickness is mine, sickness is mine, sickness is mine
I've been hoping that I'm alright
I've been winding myself too tight
Wondering If I will sleep tonight
Never thought things would get like this
Always hoping that they'd work out
Still ingesting the wrong amount
Now I seem to be filled with doubt
I cannot stop this ride
I'm growing cold inside
I shouldn't let it slide
will sickness be mine
This should not be my weight to bear
Go on acting like I don't care
Stop this high --- I wouldn't dare
I have earned and deserve my share
Things like this happen every day
While I'm in there I feel okay
But you say I should go away
Let me go for just one more day
I cannot stop this ride
I'm growing cold inside
I shouldn't let it slide
will sickness be mine
I cannot stop this ride
I'm growing cold inside
I shouldn't let it slide
will sickness be mine
I've got to medicate myself, I'm not concerned about my health
It covers up what I've been dealt, it seems the only way
I've got to medicate myself, it's been the only thing that helped
Must cover up what I have felt, it seems the only way
I cannot stop this ride
I'm growing cold inside
I shouldn't let it slide
will sickness be mine
I cannot stop this ride
I'm growing cold inside
I shouldn't let it slide
will sickness be mine
Sickness is mine, sickness is mine, sickness is mine
Lyrics submitted by The_Cereal_killer
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you people dont know what real sickness is.... i often lie in bed and wonder why i feel no love, no pain, no anger. and all the people who "love" me tell me i need help. that i should be medicated. i too am growing cold inside. "sickness is mine" and i wont let anyone or anything get in the way of my "emotion" no medication, no "happy pills". i wont bow before them and allow them to control me with theire attempts to make me a "normal person" the normal will be allowed to follow, but the insane shall lead.