I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
I wonder where you are.
Please don't come around tonight
'Cause I can't stand to see you and I don't want to fight.
Gimme one more drink and I swear I think
I'll be ready to make the same mistakes again with you.
I finally figured out that you're not coming back
And I'm not going anywhere.
You were the one with all the faith
How did you let it slip away?
That's right, I'm blaming this all on you
And the little things you didn't do.
We both knew that you were stronger,
Could have fought a little longer.
You didn't hold it tight enough.
You lost your grip and I slipped right through your fingers.
No more sleepless nights alone.
This bed is better without you.
No more waitin' up for calls.
I've got nothin' left to say to you.
Tell me again about those better days.
This silence hurts me more than anything you could say.
Broken knuckles, broken heart.
I fell in love then fell apart.
You tried to run, I tried to hide,
Still we managed to collide.
Fell so hard, matching scars.
Held you close, felt so far.
Hearts beating out of time.
You're screaming with no reason and no rhyme.
So I will save this last breath
For words that I won't scream.
I don't feel like dying,
But you're killing me.
Just when the wounds start healing
You're there to break me open.
Watch the blood spill.
I'm getting used to this.
I'll clean it in the morning.
I wonder where you are.
Please don't come around tonight
'Cause I can't stand to see you
And I don't want to fight.
Gimme one more drink and I swear
I think I'll be ready to make the same mistakes
Again without you.
Please don't come around tonight
'Cause I can't stand to see you and I don't want to fight.
Gimme one more drink and I swear I think
I'll be ready to make the same mistakes again with you.
I finally figured out that you're not coming back
And I'm not going anywhere.
You were the one with all the faith
How did you let it slip away?
That's right, I'm blaming this all on you
And the little things you didn't do.
We both knew that you were stronger,
Could have fought a little longer.
You didn't hold it tight enough.
You lost your grip and I slipped right through your fingers.
No more sleepless nights alone.
This bed is better without you.
No more waitin' up for calls.
I've got nothin' left to say to you.
Tell me again about those better days.
This silence hurts me more than anything you could say.
Broken knuckles, broken heart.
I fell in love then fell apart.
You tried to run, I tried to hide,
Still we managed to collide.
Fell so hard, matching scars.
Held you close, felt so far.
Hearts beating out of time.
You're screaming with no reason and no rhyme.
So I will save this last breath
For words that I won't scream.
I don't feel like dying,
But you're killing me.
Just when the wounds start healing
You're there to break me open.
Watch the blood spill.
I'm getting used to this.
I'll clean it in the morning.
I wonder where you are.
Please don't come around tonight
'Cause I can't stand to see you
And I don't want to fight.
Gimme one more drink and I swear
I think I'll be ready to make the same mistakes
Again without you.
Lyrics submitted by blink_me182
Killing Me Lyrics as written by Joshua Mark Slater Jason Scott Bone
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Reservoir Media Management, Inc.
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i THINK this is my favorite song by them. they are a FANTASTIC band and i agree with PATCHY on the whole popularity thing. i can relate to this song soo much..
'gimme one more drink and iswear i think i'll be ready to make the same mistakes again with you' is possibly the most amazing line of a song ever. i think hes saying how he was drunk, hookedup with some girl, and knows it was wrong, but has feelings for her. in the end of the song, i love how he says without you to say that hes over her and doesnt need her anymore.
BEST BAND EVER.