This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
It's so simple
And complicated.
The way you can crush me.
No matter how much this hurts,
This is through.
I get as far as your door
Before i get caught.
I make up excuses
Just to touch you and I can't stop
I can't stop.
So are we playing for keeps?
The days begin and they don't end for weeks.
Leave me left out
Of anything to do with you.
Excuse me while I fall apart.
Don't flatter yourself sweetheart.
Let me take the wheel
And I'll crash this car.
Do you have to make this so hard?
You're so good at pretending everything is alright.
You're as welcome as cancer
But my door is always unlocked.
So are we playing for keeps?
The days begin and they don't end for weeks.
Leave me left out
Of anything to do with you.
Excuse me while I fall apart.
Don't flatter yourself sweetheart.
Let me take the wheel
And I'll crash this car.
Do you have to make this so hard?
And complicated.
The way you can crush me.
No matter how much this hurts,
This is through.
I get as far as your door
Before i get caught.
I make up excuses
Just to touch you and I can't stop
I can't stop.
So are we playing for keeps?
The days begin and they don't end for weeks.
Leave me left out
Of anything to do with you.
Excuse me while I fall apart.
Don't flatter yourself sweetheart.
Let me take the wheel
And I'll crash this car.
Do you have to make this so hard?
You're so good at pretending everything is alright.
You're as welcome as cancer
But my door is always unlocked.
So are we playing for keeps?
The days begin and they don't end for weeks.
Leave me left out
Of anything to do with you.
Excuse me while I fall apart.
Don't flatter yourself sweetheart.
Let me take the wheel
And I'll crash this car.
Do you have to make this so hard?
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Definitely right...This song is amazing and has great sound and everything. This is one of my favorite songs even though I like every one. They were awesome at the Dec 17th concert with Yellowcard. Got both their cd's there...best 15 bucks spent EVER.
i was a fan of matchbook romance before all the stupid little girls at my school who think they are "punk" started showing up at the shows, but anyhoo, this song sounds like taking back sunday...odd
"you're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked"
i like that line. matchbook is one of my fav's. they have some good lines. check out something corporate...
and countmycrows, i def. agree with you on that one i hate it when girls just start listening to it and think they're punk and shit..isn't that just a pain in the ass..it kills me-it's def. a pet peeve
This song is freaking awesome. The acoustic is just as awesome. Matchbook Romance needs to get bigger, they are good enough to.
This band and others as good as it make me sad because i don't live in America and i'll probably never get to see them live.......
"you're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked"
i agree, i like that line too. it means that he cant stand to see her come back, but his door is always unlocked if she does want to.
i was so fucking happy when they played this live. basically about how painful and dramatic relationships can get and how frustrating it is.
i think it's talking about some girl who continually flirts with him. Then when he thinks she really loves him, she turns around and says she doesn't. He keeps getting hurt by her, and he doesn't want her around, but he can't help letting her come back.
CountMyCrows ...what does it matter who likes thse guys ya know if you spend all ur time gettin angry about that stuff you'll miss out on some cool stuff i reckon chill out ...and keep it real