This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Don't want the sun to shine upon my face
And I see your eyes and their glazy haze
Your lips don't move
But I hear what you're saying
I look outside through the razor blades
And I crawl and I scrape and I feel for you
But there's nothing
There's nothing that I can do
I'm a freak
I'm the freak of the world
I'm a freak
Freak of the world
Stars are shining oh so bright
And I don't think everything's alright
And I can't wake up
'cause I dream all night
Yeah you're in my way
And I can't get bye
And I beg and I cheat and I steal for you
But there's nothing
There's nothing that I can do
I'm a freak
I'm the freak of the world
I'm the freak of the world
I'm the freak of the world
And there's nothing I can say
And there's nthing you can do
And there's nothing I can say or do
Don't want the sun to shine upon my face
And I see your eyes and their glazy haze
Your lips don't move but I hear what you're saying
I look out side through the razor blades
And I try
(through the razor blades)
And I scream
(through the razor blades)
I can see your face
I'm the freak of the world
I'm the freak of the world
I'm the freak of the world
And there is nothing I can say
And there is nothing you can do
And there is nothing I can say or do
Caz I'm the freak of the world
I'm a freak
Of the world
And I see your eyes and their glazy haze
Your lips don't move
But I hear what you're saying
I look outside through the razor blades
And I crawl and I scrape and I feel for you
But there's nothing
There's nothing that I can do
I'm a freak
I'm the freak of the world
I'm a freak
Freak of the world
Stars are shining oh so bright
And I don't think everything's alright
And I can't wake up
'cause I dream all night
Yeah you're in my way
And I can't get bye
And I beg and I cheat and I steal for you
But there's nothing
There's nothing that I can do
I'm a freak
I'm the freak of the world
I'm the freak of the world
I'm the freak of the world
And there's nothing I can say
And there's nthing you can do
And there's nothing I can say or do
Don't want the sun to shine upon my face
And I see your eyes and their glazy haze
Your lips don't move but I hear what you're saying
I look out side through the razor blades
And I try
(through the razor blades)
And I scream
(through the razor blades)
I can see your face
I'm the freak of the world
I'm the freak of the world
I'm the freak of the world
And there is nothing I can say
And there is nothing you can do
And there is nothing I can say or do
Caz I'm the freak of the world
I'm a freak
Of the world
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"Don't want the sun to shine upon my face and I see your eyes in the glazy haze. You lips don't move but I hear what you say. I look outside though the razor blades."
He sees himself as a freak and he doesn't go outside to interact with people because he's afraid that people will judge him. He has people in his life that try to reach out to him but he's so insecure that he goes out of the way to avoid them because he feels that people are judging him, even though they don't say anything negative towards him. (Your lips don't move but I hear what you say) He looks outside through the razor blades, he sees the blinds on the windows as razor blades because he feels that he will get hurt if he tries to go outside, so he stays inside all the time like he's in a prison.
Kurt Cobain has his journals in the bookstores now and on the back cover it says, "Read and you will judge." That sums it up perfectly. Everyone judges people whether they want to or not, it's just a natural thiing to do, you can say that you're not judging them (the other person) but you really are, everyone does it. It seems like the narrator kind of knows that people are judging him and almost knows what they're thinking and has even convinced himself that they're all thinking that he's a "freak" and "what the hell is wrong with this guy?" and it makes him feel uneasy when he's around these people, even if he's completey wrong about what they're really thinking, in his head that's how it is.
Maybe I'm completey off base with what song really means but myself having social anxiety and Avoidant Personality Disorder, I could totally realate to this point of view.
Anyway take away from this song what you want.