I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin'
It's like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infinite words I can say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
And now you've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
Hearing your name, the memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
I'd see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I was committing myself to 'em and everyday
I regret saying those things 'cause now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
And now you've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(It never goes away)
(It never goes away)
(Get away from me)
Give me my space back you gotta just (go)
Everything comes down the memories of (you)
I've kept it in without letting you (know)
I've let you go so get away from (me)
Give me my space back you gotta just (go)
Everything comes down the memories of (you)
I've kept it in without letting you (know)
I've let you go
And now you've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become
Lost inside these thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin'
It's like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infinite words I can say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
And now you've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
Hearing your name, the memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
I'd see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I was committing myself to 'em and everyday
I regret saying those things 'cause now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
And now you've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(It never goes away)
(It never goes away)
(Get away from me)
Give me my space back you gotta just (go)
Everything comes down the memories of (you)
I've kept it in without letting you (know)
I've let you go so get away from (me)
Give me my space back you gotta just (go)
Everything comes down the memories of (you)
I've kept it in without letting you (know)
I've let you go
And now you've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become
Lost inside these thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
Lyrics submitted by ruben, edited by FruitCakes
Figure.09 Lyrics as written by Chester Charles Bennington Brad Delson
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
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This song is about what ChaoX. Its about separating with someone. But everytime you think about that someone you get those memories. "You become a part of me" Meaning that everything you do your reminded of that person and the painful rememories is things like saying that you loved the person. That you knew that those word were going to hurt sooner or later but your trying really hard to let go of those feelings but your surrendering to those thoughts and now there haunting you.
i can't say for sure what this song means, but every time i hear it, i think of my father and my brother. to me the song is a message to my dad from my brother, who holds strong resentment of him(lost inside these thoughts of you) he has always brooded over our fathers actions, though in the end it seems that he's begun to do all of the same things(you i can't separate myself from what i've done)<br /> eventually i think he'll realize what's happening and come to realize that the first lines apply to him(Nothin’ ever stops all these thoughts n’ the pain attached to them<br /> Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin)