Redemption Denied

General CommentY' know, sometimes when I get up in the morning, I don't know if I can face another day
'Cause shit's been so fuckin' hard for so fuckin' long
And it don't seem like shit's ever gonna change
Sometimes it seems like shit ain't doin' nothin' but gettin' worse

Sometimes when I look in the mirror, I really despise what I see
'Cause pride, strength, honor, love, and life
They don't seem to have a whole lot to do with me

It feels like something went wrong with me a long time ago
Something inside me, way down deep died
And I can't remember when
I just don't know where the fuck I went wrong

What's life but a river of tears anyway, huh?

[2X]
Every day
Each fuckin' day
I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fuckin' way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

I've got nothing left
I wait for the angel of death
I've lost too many times
Too many times to count
The pain is great

Let me tell you somethin'
Rock bottom is a sweet fuckin' dream
A myth made up by a liar
Whose despair is a void you can slip into forever

I've been as low as you can go
And I guess when you're at the bottom, the only place you can go is up
But every time I start to get ahead
Every time I start to get somewhere
It seems like someone or something just knocks me the fuck back down
One step forward, two steps back

I read somewhere that without hope, man is but an animal
I think I've lost hope

I've got nothing left
I wait for the angel of death
I've lost too many times
Too many times to count
The pain is great

And I'm so fuckin' tired of being fucked up all the time
But I can't seem to do it any other way
Maybe I'm not as strong as you
But sometimes, my fucked-up life, it brings me down when I look around

My life, it didn't make me hard
It just hardened something way down deep inside me
I think it was my humanity
I want it back
I wanna feel normal again, I wanna feel like a human

I don't wanna be like this no more
I'm just lookin' for some kind of shelter or salvation
Or just somethin' to believe in
Or maybe just... Just someone to care

I've got nothing left
I wait for the angel of death
I've lost too many times
Too many times to count
The pain is great

I never asked for life
I wish that at birth I had died
I tried to drown this hurt
Death will be the cure for all this pain

[2X]
Every day
Each fuckin' day
I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fuckin' way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

I've got nothing left
I wait for the angel of death
I've lost too many times
Too many times to count
The pain is great

I never asked for life
I wish that at birth I had died
I tried to drown this hurt
Death will be the cure for all this pain

[2X]
Every day
Each fuckin' day
I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fuckin' way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

I've got nothing left
I wait for the angel of death
I've lost too many times
Too many times to count
The pain is great

I never asked for life
I wish that at birth I had died
I tried to drown this hurt
Death will be the cure for all this pain

[2X]
Every day
Each fuckin' day
I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fuckin' way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

There's nowhere to turn
Everyone betrays you
You can't trust anyone, and I'm so fuckin' paranoid
I'm always waiting for the fall, for the let-down
There's just nobody for sure

I can't remember when a day's gone by that I haven't thought about takin' myself out
I know I ain't shit
And I know I ain't ever gonna be shit
I got no future
But I think I could deal with it
I think I could live
If I could look at just one person, and see them smile at me, and know that they meant it

[4X]
Every day
Each fuckin' day
I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fuckin' way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

Redemption denied

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