This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
your eyes push shards of glass to mince my defenses
I never thought i’d feel this way - memories haunting every breath
it frightens me to know I can never be rid of you
after a year, you still stir something in me
the hate has faded but the disgust remains.
I recall when only warmth and acceptance filled your eyes.
if I could understand - what turned you against me
if I could just understand - what hardened your stare into scorn
what was it worth to you - to turn me inside out?
you became he that we hated - left me with scarlet eyes
and an empty chest - its been a year and I still feel nauseous
brown eyes cut into me - parting once friendly flesh
I burned your pictures away - but I can;t stop remember whens
the city has not felt the same since
though your stare has hardened - this cold contempt makes me wonder
could an ounce of guilt boil in your blood?
this blood we shared - seeps from an ever present truth
a missing piece of my past - still makes me crawl the other way
no I can’t forgive - as you embody my regret
you are the living proof - that i’ll never ever trust again
I never really told you what you had meant to me
ere my lungs met the ire of your voracious mouth.
so now I walk alone through the ashes of our ties.
my mind flooding with memories of endless summer drives.
i’d love to talk with you to fully understand
what finally drove you to this choice - to smash my heart
but some things are better left unsaid.
I never thought i’d feel this way - memories haunting every breath
it frightens me to know I can never be rid of you
after a year, you still stir something in me
the hate has faded but the disgust remains.
I recall when only warmth and acceptance filled your eyes.
if I could understand - what turned you against me
if I could just understand - what hardened your stare into scorn
what was it worth to you - to turn me inside out?
you became he that we hated - left me with scarlet eyes
and an empty chest - its been a year and I still feel nauseous
brown eyes cut into me - parting once friendly flesh
I burned your pictures away - but I can;t stop remember whens
the city has not felt the same since
though your stare has hardened - this cold contempt makes me wonder
could an ounce of guilt boil in your blood?
this blood we shared - seeps from an ever present truth
a missing piece of my past - still makes me crawl the other way
no I can’t forgive - as you embody my regret
you are the living proof - that i’ll never ever trust again
I never really told you what you had meant to me
ere my lungs met the ire of your voracious mouth.
so now I walk alone through the ashes of our ties.
my mind flooding with memories of endless summer drives.
i’d love to talk with you to fully understand
what finally drove you to this choice - to smash my heart
but some things are better left unsaid.
Lyrics submitted by big_zig
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yeah, they are great... but what's with the 12 year old girl typing -_-
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They are not hard-core, little girl. They are metal.
definitely. this band is fucking awesome
How is The Black Dahlia Murder hardcore? I think they sound pretty death metal dont you?
HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! BDM=HARDCORE????? NO!
BDM=RIDICULOUSLY IMITATIVE, i apologize for saying so, FAST
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Black Dahlia is pretty much black/death.
ahahah..12 year old girl typing LaWl!! Anyway they are death metal for the most part but i can see why u might think they are metalcore.
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