This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Now I can take this, everything I know
Realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be
I can never change anything I've done
Because it's the only thing I have left
Blame yourself again for what I didn't do
Never even knew it was coming from me
It changed the way I felt, the worst is yet to come
Because I have gone too far now
[Chorus]
Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease
Is this all worth what this has done to me
Watered down my senses and turned them on me
Fuck morality and everything I know
If I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope
Impersonate myself for what I used to be
Denial is all that's left now
Nobody (repeats x4)
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody (repeats x4)
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease \
But it still becomes a new disease
Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I could've been, it's all I would've been doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I've ever been, it's all I'll ever be
Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me
[Chorus]
Realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be
I can never change anything I've done
Because it's the only thing I have left
Blame yourself again for what I didn't do
Never even knew it was coming from me
It changed the way I felt, the worst is yet to come
Because I have gone too far now
[Chorus]
Nobody
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease
Is this all worth what this has done to me
Watered down my senses and turned them on me
Fuck morality and everything I know
If I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope
Impersonate myself for what I used to be
Denial is all that's left now
Nobody (repeats x4)
Changed my mind
And it leads me to a new disease
Somebody (repeats x4)
Let it die
But it still becomes a new disease \
But it still becomes a new disease
Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I could've been, it's all I would've been doubt
Did I ever want this?
It's all I've ever been, it's all I'll ever be
Seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
This meant so much to me
[Chorus]
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raymondo nailed this one. I never really had any ideas as to what this song meant. I saw Spineshank this summer (2009) on Disturbed's "Music As A Weapon" tour and right before they played this song Johnny said something like "This song is for everyone out there like us that doesn't care and just likes to smoke weed, drink whiskey and get fucked up all the time."
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Great song makes sense to "Realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be" and nobody is actually what they want to because nobodys perfect even if they think they are and so we try and change ourselfs and become the image we think is perfect "I can never change anything I've done Because it's the only thing I have left" he's saying that all our failure's are what we are and we can't change that
The song seems to be a self realization that everything that they try to do, it just causes more problems and that they feel like a scape goat of some kind "Blame myself for what I didn't do". Pretty much they accepted the fact that they're in a Catch 22.
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I feel this song fits the alcoholism persona so much and I feel I can relate to this song deeply. Anyone who has became depressed and turned to alcohol only to become dependent on it will know what I'm talking about.
i'm not sure what this song means to me yet but i know i like it
Right now I am listening to this song and reading the lyrics and I can really relate with this song. It definately means something to me. Doesn't he say, "Blame myself again for what I didn't do"??
"Fuck morality and everything I know"..This is the 1st song I ever heard by them! ..And it has some meaning to it
Yep, he said "Blame myself", not "Blame yourself", well, that makes more sense anyway. I don't see how you could blame yourself for something someone else did. This song does have a meaning-- but I'm not sure what it is.
Hey RawkerChic, you should check out "Synthetic" and "Asthmatic" by Spineshank, if you haven't already. Those two are my favorites.