Praying for myself.
These thoughts I try to hide.
I have faith in me and hope this will survive.
But it's tearing me apart.
I can't hear the words by which I guide.
So I must ask again who will carry me.

I will not deny that nothing can defend
from the helplessness that's cutting deep inside,
and I cannot prevent the thought that nothings real.
Seems I've waited years for this day to end.

The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me,
Are not there behind the face staring back at me.
The anger and the pain of knowing where I am.
I have come so far and I cannot return.

Nothing I can do that I have not done.
No words I can say. No truth left that I can see.
So must I let this end so everything falls apart.
Before I live the life as I have always done.

Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong.
Something I can hope for. Something real that I can see.
So nothing falls apart. So that it does not end.
I cannot return. I can't start again.


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Rubicon Lyrics as written by Joseph Thomas Green Joseph Carnall

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    Helplessness and utter darkness. That was my feelings when I heard this song the first time. I was battling serious depression at the time, and music was a great help.

    While I do think Czar5000 do have a very valid point, this song will always mean darkness, uncerntanity and doubt of my self. It is not a bad thing though, as it do give me great strength whenever I listen to it. It helps me see beoynd despair.

    "Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong Something I can hope for, something real that I can see So nothing falls apart, so this does not end. I cannot return, I can't start again"

    That part touched me deep, and I will never forget that part.

    And you are right Zombie Pin-Up, it is "guide" not "die" on line four.

    Pholostanon December 15, 2005   Link

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