"Pushit" as written by Daniel Carey, Adam Jones, Paul D'amour and Maynard James Keenan....
I saw the gap again today
While you were begging me to stay
Take care not to make me enter
If I do we both may disappear

You know that I will choke until I swallow
Choke this infant here before me
What is this but my reflection?
Who am I to judge or strike you down?

But you're pushing me shoving me
But you're pushing me shoving me
But you're pushing me shoving me
But you're pushing me shoving me
But you're pushing me shoving me
But you're pushing me shoving me
But you're pushing me shoving me
But you're pushing me shoving me

You still love me
You still love me but you didn't need to shit on me
You still love me
You still love me but you didn't need to shit on me

Rest your trigger on my finger
Bang my head upon the fault line
You'd better take care not to make me enter
'Cause if I do we both may disappear

But you're pushing me shoving me
But you're pushing me shoving me
But you're pushing me shoving me
But you're pushing me shoving me

You still love me, you still love me
She didn't mean to pushit on me.
You're pushing me shoving me
You're pushing me shoving me

I'm slipping back into the gap again
I'm alive when you're touching me
Alive when you're shoving me down, hey

But I'd trade it all for just a little peace of mind

Pushit on me
Pushit on me
Pushit on me
Pushit on me
You're pushing and shoving and scrambling
Keep my feet flat on the ground

I am somewhere I don't wanna be
Push me somewhere I don't wanna be
Put me somewhere I don't wanna be
Seeing someplace I don't wanna see
Never wanna see that place again

Saw that gap again today
While you were begging me to stay
Managed to push myself away
And you, as well, my dear

If when I say I might fade like a sigh if I stay
You minimize my movement anyway
I must persuade you another way

Pushing and shovin'
Pushing and shoving, push at me!
There's no love in fear

Staring down the hole again
Hands are on my back again
Surviving is my only friend
Terrified of what may come

Remember I will always love you
As I claw your fucking throat away
It will end no other way
It will end no other way


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"Pushit" as written by Daniel Carey Adam Jones

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  • +7
    General CommentI can't believe everyone is obsessed with sex so much...it's true, some (very few, in fact, of maynard's TOOL songs have to do with sex...many more of his apc have to do with sex) TOOL songs have to do with sex as a metaphor or as an abuse (prison sex), etc., but most of Maynard's songs have intellectual meaning, philisophical meanings, ideological meanings...as does pushit. Pushit simply has to do with Maynard's internal struggle with his past and that of religion (Christian Baptist in particular). The infant mentioned in the song is in part himself in his youth and representative of the infant Jesus Christ. The ideas and values preached to a young Maynard really confused him because of the abusive relationship his stepfather (the one who was preaching) had with him. He associates a harmless, loving, defenseless infant with himself as a child, but he still hates himself for letting that abuse happen...he wants to get away from himself and that time in his life. The infant haunts him...it's an image that stays with him always, partly from what was preached to him. It's an image that tells him to love those who have wronged him (forgive them), an image that dictates the way he SHOULD (whether the right way or the wrong way) live his life but that he can't face up to because it is just to painful. Jesus was abused in some of the most wicked ways and yet, he forgave all those who maimed him. Maynard disagrees with this at the time this song was written. He holds THE GRUDGE and wheres it like a crown.
    rog27on August 16, 2002   Link
  • +5
    General CommentFor me this song, as with many tool songs is about breaking patterns of negative, and often abusive behaviour - whether it be towards the self, another person, or on a social level. It says that the capacity to damage is often unintentional but inevitable if you dont actively overcome the negative aspects of yourself, whatever the cause of those traits is.

    Thus pushit may be interpreted as a relationship whereby two personalities bring the worst out of each other even though they are apparently inseperable, and dependent on one another. The only way to end the pattern is for both to die and be reborn.
    th1980on February 28, 2011   Link
  • +3
    General CommentI love the multiple ways you can interpret this song. You can see it, shallowly, about sex, wade into the waters and say it's about a complicated relationship between two lovers, or, as I prefer, you can dive deeply and say it's about the relationship between two characters within one body. These characters are fighting for control. Not necessarily two personalities as if he is a schitzo, but more so that you can't decide who you are or want to be and you change for other people and distort who you are for them, and then finally deciding to take control in the end, even if sometimes you loved your "alternate person" that you were pretending to be.
    themeddleron November 02, 2012   Link
  • +2
    Song FactMaynard himself said that this song is about identifying the cycle of abuse within yourself. The lyrics quite obviously show that. You may interpret the song in any way you wish, but the man himself already gave the meaning.


    Source: youtube.com/…
    sKRiBELon August 27, 2015   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI hate when people say Maynard is a god. This sounds so stupid coming from an actual Tool fan. He is a human being just like you or I. Of couse he IS in the greatest band in the world, and has gone through life experiences that make him a person the we can learn from. Although sometimes I wonder about Tool's true meaning. never-the-less, there is some value to be seen in Tool songs, but not so much that we should follow him blindly!
    joshthackon April 19, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General CommentNever been a fan of conceptual art until TooL came around... Persons translate deep songs like Pushit the way it suits them, and everyone will find 'the right meaning' and 'the right way to interprete' lyrics in the right way to fit into his/her own mental 'device', due to their own preconceptions, frustrations, meanings etc.
    For me, personally, this song has been the best introduction to the methods of Jung's theory of 'Reflective Cycology' :-)... which refers to 'phenomenom' of projecting your own virtues and lacks onto another person, making him/her reflection of yourself - just like Jesus said about 'thorn in someone's eye becomes a stick in your own eye' (or something like that, I'm sorry for this paraphrase). What it means is that what might bother you with one person is actually something that you might bother another person with.
    ...like someone pointed previously about the inner struggle over/against oneself, I thought for Maynard that he addressed this song to himself : 'who am I to judge and strike you down' refers to what I previously wrote on Jung's theory... The thing is that I was the one addressing this song to myself, and if I hadn't learned important lesson on this projecting onto other persons, I quess I would become schyzophrenic, to say at least. ;-)
    Seriously, TooL did one hell of a job here and I'm glad that I really don't know what this song means for them... However, I recommend you all to find more on Jung, because I'm too lazy to write down here all the concepts on above mentioned, and it might be useful to someone who might, instead, post something originally on this topic.
    Mr.TreeUpsidedownon July 18, 2005   Link
  • +1
    General CommentWhat we should all realize off the bat is that there were 2 different 'released' versions of this song. In the live version (Salival) Maynard comments at the beginning of the track that they're going to play it differently because it means something new to them and that they want the energy of the crowd to help propel the interpretation along.

    The original song (Aenima) can be interpreted many ways. Yes, I agree (sometimes against my will), that it could be about anything from abuse (including self) to relationships, religion, health, etc. I believe the song itself was crafted in such a personal and hidden way that we could all generalize until we're blue but never really touch the source of this incredible track.

    The live version, however, is a different story (in my opinion). Thank you F00L for transcribing this version for us (above).

    Allow me to be slightly long-winded due to the depth of the ideas I'm trying to express... hopefully you won't just scroll down to add your own opinion in haste.

    With Maynard's declaration that they were "trying to see this song from a different angle and under a different light", it should be obvious that there was a breakthrough in regards to how they felt about this song in the few years they were touring after they had recorded and pressed it.

    I guess, given the array of "mental states" or "frames of mind" (no, I'm not talking about drugs) you can be in on a tour, where you are playing similar set lists every night, it's inevitable that the songs that you have written from your deepest and/or darkest places will start to take new meaning. Indeed, even the greatest artist will find new inspiration in his old work. (I think I'll coin that!)

    With his plea to have the crowd grant him their collective feeling of vulnerability, I believe he had a very direct and essential message for all of us. No, I am not saying that "Maynard is God" or a prophet, but I believe that if there were a band out there that could speak to that which is within us… below the surface… it is Tool.

    Thus, I think Maynard really gave us a glimpse into our struggle. I also believe he said it in the simplest way possible. For those of you that are not familiar with the evolution of the body, mind and spirit, you should check out some Buddhist literature. Try ‘The Tibetan book of Living and Dying’ – Sogyal Rinpoche… (best source I can give while in the moment).

    I believe that this song (the live version) was written entirely about the evolution of the mind. A lot of people have touched on topics of God in this forum, but I don't believe it's ‘God’ that he's speaking of/to... instead, it's his ‘higher self’. There's a bit of gray between the 2 concepts that can cause confusion.

    If you listen to this song as a message to his ‘higher self’ as it tries to pull him through to "enlightenment", or simply our next stage of growth, it makes a whole lot of serious sense.

    I don't know how many of you have a voice in your head that you know is your own but can't grasp how it actually sounds? The one that speaks the words as you read to yourself, the one that you turn to when you're unsure... that little angel of good advice that you don't always take....

    I believe, as is not uncommon in spiritual circles across the world, that this is our very outlet to the divine. Or brief reflection of ourselves in a higher consciousness.

    I believe that his song is a very direct and very focused spotlight on the struggle between the ‘Higher Self’ and the Ego (see Freud or any Buddhist literature for dynamic ideas on the function/identification of the notion).

    The Ego itself is the dominant mental structure in our every-day lives. The Buddhists say that it's the veil in which covers the line between the corporeal and the enlightened. It's that which blinds us and tricks us into remaining in this evolutionary state until we literally hatch from the egg. The Ego is our egg shell, that which protects us at a very basic level and allows us to grow without the pressures and mind-blowing intensity that is ‘God’.

    Even though the Ego tends to hold some people back (those who grow very quickly inside the shell) it is completely essential in our evolution... as important as the brain, the heart and the lungs.

    As much as it is necessary, it is also very tricky. It has the ability to fool all of the senses, to shut you down if it needs to... to direct your train of thought as you drift away. We give full control of ourselves to this innate consciousness and handfuls of us come to realize it entirely.

    When we start to wake up, it's terrifying... like being pushed from the womb. We are about to undertake reality-shattering events that will re-construct everything we thought we knew.

    In order to cross through to the next layer of reality/consciousness, we have to be able to leave the womb behind... and that is one of the hardest things a human being can be asked to do. Just look at how we react as babies when we are born and how we deal with the world as we learn and grow. Life a we know it isn’t always the easiest place to exist.

    The fact of the matter is that we can't stay in the shell forever, regardless of how comfortable or familiar it becomes. The shell (Ego) will ultimately become too small or narrow for our expanding mental/spiritual capacity as humans.

    We have to come to terms with the idea and ease ourselves through the passing, as not to cause ourselves any more shock than necessary. When I hear this song and I think this way, it makes me realize that “all of this pain really is an illusion”... that we should embrace our evolution and start to 'question authority' (ego) regardless of how often this authority attempts to trick us into staying. It is just our reflection.

    As you can tell, I'm very passionate about this song and the truth that rings through me every time I hear it. Hopefully there's at least one other person out there that shares the same perspective. If not, sorry for wasting your time.
    Staticfactoryon December 03, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThe Yin Yang sums up these lyrics pretty well. Polarity, duality, energies combing to become greater than the sum of their parts or canceling each other out, always containing some part of the other within themselves. Light and dark, self and other, being and non-being, male and female, or even just two people in a relationship regardless of gender. It's the magnetic push-pull phenomenon. This can be applied to many spectrums/polarities and interpreted in many different ways.
    weirdpercenton February 05, 2013   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationIt is a song a bout Fear.

    Conquering ones fear is like pushing it onto one self.

    There is no greater feeling than conquering ones fear.

    Survival is my only friend. Terrified of what may come.

    Remember I will always love you, as I claw your fucking throat away.

    It will end no other way.

    Fear is the only emotion that you can eliminate with destruction

    Conquer fear and you can conquer anything.
    mikehyon August 22, 2013   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationI believe this to be about the painful schism of leaving the home of your mother. She has made you her life, But that life WILL kill you as a person. If it was up to her, she would still be wiping your asshole as a 25 year old. "remember I will always love you, as I tear your fucking throat away," you love your mom, but you can't be under her thumb forever, even if it kills her.
    kinuamaon April 04, 2014   Link

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