This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I left my heart in San Francisco with some club kids
On a crowded street somewhere
The sky was red and he said
"Would you like to come be a part of my North American dream?"
I could try to chase life down
Down the street and I'd find
The separation of fact and fiction
I'm trynna find a way (trynna find a way)
I'm trynna find a right (trynna find a right)
And if I budge I just might
I'm trynna find a way (trynna find a way)
I'm trynna find a right (trynna find a right)
And if I budge, I just might
I left my conscience somewhere with my rhythm
I heard about it from the mouth of a man
He was hopping some trains and combing the land
Looking for a lover planted in the east
Tryna run from the dreaded fist beast, beast, beast
And it lies and lies
In the picket fence call
It was my own paradise with
My own private corridor
I'm trynna find a way (trynna find a way)
I'm trynna find a right (trynna find a right)
And if I budge I just might
I'm trynna find a way (trynna find a way)
I'm trynna find a right (trynna find a right)
And if I budge, I just might
So I'm dancing to a new beat and it came to me in bed
My veins became a strain of light that I let to flow instead
And a wish came to me like Peter Pan at my window and said
"Evolve your destiny, child, and you'll never walk alone, no
You'll never walk alone," but
Travel to the land of surrender
'Til you can't cry no more
'Til you can't, til you can't
And you'll never walk alone
All this inspiration is passing me by
All I can do is chill when I really wanna fly
And this pollution do nothing but dirty up my mind
Faster than forever in the blink of an eye
To see past my lethargy is hard I feign
The beauty of my youth is gone
But the chemicals remain
I'm trynna find a way (trynna find a way)
I'm trynna find a right (trynna find a right)
And if I budge, I just might
I'm trynna find a way (I travel to this land of surrender)
I'm trynna find a right (but I see it's all over me)
And if I budge I just might (over and over again and I try and I try)
I'm trynna find a way (and I try, an angel on my left side)
I'm trynna find a right (and a devil on my right)
And if I budge I just might (and they fight and they fight and they fight)
They're fighting
They're fighting, they're fighting for my attention
Hello? You have my attention
Do I have your attention? Can I have your attention, please?
Please, you've made such, such, such an impression on me
On a crowded street somewhere
The sky was red and he said
"Would you like to come be a part of my North American dream?"
I could try to chase life down
Down the street and I'd find
The separation of fact and fiction
I'm trynna find a way (trynna find a way)
I'm trynna find a right (trynna find a right)
And if I budge I just might
I'm trynna find a way (trynna find a way)
I'm trynna find a right (trynna find a right)
And if I budge, I just might
I left my conscience somewhere with my rhythm
I heard about it from the mouth of a man
He was hopping some trains and combing the land
Looking for a lover planted in the east
Tryna run from the dreaded fist beast, beast, beast
And it lies and lies
In the picket fence call
It was my own paradise with
My own private corridor
I'm trynna find a way (trynna find a way)
I'm trynna find a right (trynna find a right)
And if I budge I just might
I'm trynna find a way (trynna find a way)
I'm trynna find a right (trynna find a right)
And if I budge, I just might
So I'm dancing to a new beat and it came to me in bed
My veins became a strain of light that I let to flow instead
And a wish came to me like Peter Pan at my window and said
"Evolve your destiny, child, and you'll never walk alone, no
You'll never walk alone," but
Travel to the land of surrender
'Til you can't cry no more
'Til you can't, til you can't
And you'll never walk alone
All this inspiration is passing me by
All I can do is chill when I really wanna fly
And this pollution do nothing but dirty up my mind
Faster than forever in the blink of an eye
To see past my lethargy is hard I feign
The beauty of my youth is gone
But the chemicals remain
I'm trynna find a way (trynna find a way)
I'm trynna find a right (trynna find a right)
And if I budge, I just might
I'm trynna find a way (I travel to this land of surrender)
I'm trynna find a right (but I see it's all over me)
And if I budge I just might (over and over again and I try and I try)
I'm trynna find a way (and I try, an angel on my left side)
I'm trynna find a right (and a devil on my right)
And if I budge I just might (and they fight and they fight and they fight)
They're fighting
They're fighting, they're fighting for my attention
Hello? You have my attention
Do I have your attention? Can I have your attention, please?
Please, you've made such, such, such an impression on me
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ok..this is the only song from Nelly i can't understand... very confusing, but i like it
this is one of my fav nelly songs, the lyrics are so cool, almost like schizofrenicish
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