i wish i was infinite and given my way
i'd be so fuckin' cool
when im feeling the rush

i look at you through different eyes
i never knew my thoughts televise
what you think
i'm the twin inside you

chorus :
it's hard to believe what you say
unaccepting what you've tried to show us
and nothing can fix what's incomplete
can't get to us
never get to us

refreshing the memories
or times we've known
constantly stumbling over reason

where do these words go now so true
covering no one else but you
stepping up to make the day
devour every modern day

chorus

fell awake in my dizziness
i'm blinding
i wish i was obedient
aren't i something

i'll never be rational
i'm finding
my way to everyone
in this velvet sky of mine

boredom does nothing for me
so why does it follow
walking with the deadbeats down the street
i want everything
i'll be you idol,
be your maker
your everything
your dirty dream designer,
be your everything


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    fuckin awesome

    im feelin' jay

    nirvknot210on August 07, 2002   Link
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    General Comment

    "You can't promess me you didn't know Promess me you'll know"

    Deadon March 22, 2003   Link
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    General Comment

    seems to be about how your perception of the world is affected by which gender you are, as well as one's desire to impress the opposite gender.

    simiankolyaon March 27, 2003   Link
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    My Interpretation

    greetings from 2020 looking back, this song from my perspective mentions alot of elements seen in gender dysphoria, perhaps that internal conflict trans people often have between who the world sees and who we know ourselves to be

    violetvixenon November 16, 2020   Link

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