Matt Shadows their lead singer says the song was written as per request from the developers of Call of Duty: Black Ops 4. Watching the initial trailers for the game & looking at production sketches reminded him of the 'S-Town' podcast & its main protagonist, John B. McLemore. Matt also comments specifically on the lyrics: "I decided that the lyrics would shadow McLemore's life." In 2012, antiquarian horologist John B. McLemore sent an email to the staff of the show 'This American Life' asking them to investigate an alleged murder in his hometown of Woodstock, Alabama, a place McLemore claimed to despise. After a year of exchanging emails & several months of conversation with McLemore, producer Brian Reed traveled to Woodstock to investigate. Reed investigated the crime & eventually found that no such murder took place, though he struck up a friendship with the depressed but colorful character of McLemore. He recorded conversations with McLemore & other people in Woodstock. McLemore killed himself by drinking potassium cyanide on June 22, 2015 while the podcast was still in production. In the narrative of the podcast, this occurs at the end of the second episode; subsequent episodes deal with the fallout from McLemore's death while exploring more of McLemore's life & character.
åðùà øúé à öìê
ëùäééú ìáåùä
ááâãéà ùì ëìä îåëðä
òåã îòè à ìê
à ú åãà é îøâéùä
ìà à ùà éø ñéîï
âà à áé äúà äá
ôòà à çú áà çú
åòëùéå äåà æ÷ï òãéï
åáøãéå øåòã äæîø ëùäåà ùø
òì çééà åøåãéÃ
à ì úëáé à ú äøãéå äéùï
à ì úøãîé ìôðé ùà éùï
à ì úëáé à ú äà åø
ìôðé ùð÷ùéá ìå òåã.
òåáø òåã ùéø áøãéå äéùï
à ðé îùà éø à åúê
åòó ìùÃ
ø÷ ú÷ååé ùòåã à çæåø ùòåã à çæåø.
ìà à åîøú ìé ëìåà úéùà ø à å úìê
ìà à åîøú à îú âãåìä
åäøãéå îîåì ëì äìéìä ãåì÷
åáø÷ áçìåï ùìä.
åäùéø ùéø òìåá åáëì æà ú îåëø
îé æä ùø æä à ðé à å äåÃ
ò÷øåðåú, æëøåðåú à éðà äòé÷ø,
îä ùðùà ø ñê äëì ìà ëìåÃ.
à ì úëáé à ú äøãéå äéùï
à ì úøãîé ìôðé ùà éùï
à ì úëáé à ú äà åø
ìôðé ùð÷ùéá ìå òåã.
òåáø òåã ùéø áøãéå äéùï
à ðé îùà éø à åúê
åòó ìùÃ
ø÷ ú÷ååé ùòåã à çæåø ùòåã à çæåø.
áîøúó äéùï áà îöò äòéø áî÷åà äòâåì äñãå÷
æåâ à çã òåã ðùà ø îà åúà äéîéÃ
åìðöç äà éø÷ãå.
à áì ôä æä ìà ùÃ, ôä áåøçéà îîúé÷åú
îåëøçéà ëé äëì ðâîø.
ôä áøãéå äéùï ùø æîø ÷åì ñãå÷ åðöçé,
èåá, äåà ø÷ æîø.
à ì úëáé à ú äøãéå äéùï
à ì úøãîé ìôðé ùà éùï
à ì úëáé à ú äà åø
ìôðé ùð÷ùéá ìå òåã.
òåáø òåã ùéø áøãéå äéùï
à ðé îùà éø à åúê
åòó ìùÃ
ø÷ ú÷ååé ùòåã à çæåø ùòåã à çæåø.
ëùäééú ìáåùä
ááâãéà ùì ëìä îåëðä
òåã îòè à ìê
à ú åãà é îøâéùä
ìà à ùà éø ñéîï
âà à áé äúà äá
ôòà à çú áà çú
åòëùéå äåà æ÷ï òãéï
åáøãéå øåòã äæîø ëùäåà ùø
òì çééà åøåãéÃ
à ì úëáé à ú äøãéå äéùï
à ì úøãîé ìôðé ùà éùï
à ì úëáé à ú äà åø
ìôðé ùð÷ùéá ìå òåã.
òåáø òåã ùéø áøãéå äéùï
à ðé îùà éø à åúê
åòó ìùÃ
ø÷ ú÷ååé ùòåã à çæåø ùòåã à çæåø.
ìà à åîøú ìé ëìåà úéùà ø à å úìê
ìà à åîøú à îú âãåìä
åäøãéå îîåì ëì äìéìä ãåì÷
åáø÷ áçìåï ùìä.
åäùéø ùéø òìåá åáëì æà ú îåëø
îé æä ùø æä à ðé à å äåÃ
ò÷øåðåú, æëøåðåú à éðà äòé÷ø,
îä ùðùà ø ñê äëì ìà ëìåÃ.
à ì úëáé à ú äøãéå äéùï
à ì úøãîé ìôðé ùà éùï
à ì úëáé à ú äà åø
ìôðé ùð÷ùéá ìå òåã.
òåáø òåã ùéø áøãéå äéùï
à ðé îùà éø à åúê
åòó ìùÃ
ø÷ ú÷ååé ùòåã à çæåø ùòåã à çæåø.
áîøúó äéùï áà îöò äòéø áî÷åà äòâåì äñãå÷
æåâ à çã òåã ðùà ø îà åúà äéîéÃ
åìðöç äà éø÷ãå.
à áì ôä æä ìà ùÃ, ôä áåøçéà îîúé÷åú
îåëøçéà ëé äëì ðâîø.
ôä áøãéå äéùï ùø æîø ÷åì ñãå÷ åðöçé,
èåá, äåà ø÷ æîø.
à ì úëáé à ú äøãéå äéùï
à ì úøãîé ìôðé ùà éùï
à ì úëáé à ú äà åø
ìôðé ùð÷ùéá ìå òåã.
òåáø òåã ùéø áøãéå äéùï
à ðé îùà éø à åúê
åòó ìùÃ
ø÷ ú÷ååé ùòåã à çæåø ùòåã à çæåø.
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