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So, I prayed...
But you weren't listening.
Making miracles?
So, I begged...
But you were far away.
Saving souls perhaps?
So, I screamed...
But she was very small
And you have worlds to mend.
So, she died...
And you were glorious.
But you were somewhere else.
If you are my shepherd
Then I'm lost and no one can find me.
If you are my saviour
Then I'm dead and no one can help me.
If you are my glory
Then I'm sick and no one can cure me.
If you light my darkness
Then I'm blind and no one can see me.
If you are my father
Then love lies abandoned and bleeding.
If you are my comfort
Then nightmares are real and deceiving.
If you are my answer
Then I must have asked the wrong question.
I'd spit on your heaven
If I could find one to believe in.
But you weren't listening.
Making miracles?
So, I begged...
But you were far away.
Saving souls perhaps?
So, I screamed...
But she was very small
And you have worlds to mend.
So, she died...
And you were glorious.
But you were somewhere else.
If you are my shepherd
Then I'm lost and no one can find me.
If you are my saviour
Then I'm dead and no one can help me.
If you are my glory
Then I'm sick and no one can cure me.
If you light my darkness
Then I'm blind and no one can see me.
If you are my father
Then love lies abandoned and bleeding.
If you are my comfort
Then nightmares are real and deceiving.
If you are my answer
Then I must have asked the wrong question.
I'd spit on your heaven
If I could find one to believe in.
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Specifically, this song was about Gary and Gemma (his wife) losing their unborn child.
It really highlights Gary's frustration with the prevalent belief in God that he does not share. It is an angry slap in the face to a God he feels does not exist and in the face of those that share a belief in that God that obviously was not there when they could have used His help.
The hypocracy of singing to a God you don't believe in is rather large, but I think intentional. Much like ANdy Partridge of XTC when he wrote "Dear God". He uses that hypocracy to underline what he sees as a ridiculous and maddening weakness in his fellow man.
I love the power of this song and how clearly Gary illustrates his pain, sorrow and frustration.
@damrat Sorry man, but singing to someone who does not exist and you are 100% sure about that does not make too much sense. Real atheists do not speak about God, the ones who mention Him, even if they are not religious, is because there is something inside of them.
Heres My Opinion.
Gary & His Wife Were Going To Have A Baby, But Something Happened... His Wife Got Sick And The Baby Also Got Sick, Gary, Paryed, Begged For The Health Of His Family. His Wife Got Better But The Baby Died, And He Screamed, And Basically... Threw A Fit And I Guess Yelled At God? or Something.
oh yeah! and Gary Numan is not Aethiest, he believes his own Religion as well as i do, just because we dont follow the churches methods does NOT make us Aethiest, the purpose of Religion is, to practice WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN
@ErikJDS exactly, facts, just as it happened as shitty as it was, but a brilliant song
First of all, this song is pure art through the music, far from all the meaningless shit current music, about the message: hard and direct, a scream in the silence for all the unborn living creatures who were never born in this world; where are these lost souls going? Before this cruel reality, Gary Numan blames God to let his happen, but on the other hand, so many times humans are the guilty ones. Or maybe Gary Numan blames God on creating humanity directly; In any case, he raises the matter (he doesn´t omit as the sold ones to the stablishment) and this is art, great tune
I think this song's about how he lost a loved one and completely lost his belief in God because God wasn't there to save that loved one.
It starts "soft", praying to God, asking for help, but God doesn't listen so he tries to find an explanation, rather sarcastically; making miracles?
The song goes on like that, till he explodes in rage "If you are my Shepherd"...
I can't believe I'm the first one to comment on this song. It's simply magnificent, perhaps not as popular as 'Are Friends Electric?' or 'Cars' but twice as brilliant!
i agree with kilo and damrat, it seems the artist has lost his faith in God, because of his loss, great tune this artist is great, i wish someone would comment Dark
That last paragraph is spine tingling. Great writing! Great song!
God, I love the bitter sarcasm and overwhelming despair in this.
damrat is right. This is about the loss of Gary and Gemma's unborn child. His song Little Invitro is also about this tragic event in his life. To date Gary has performed Little Invitro only twice in a live setting and broke down both times. He has said that he will never perform Little Invitro live again. I really can't blame him for his feelings towards God over this, and this song & Little Invitro both resonate this. It makes me appreciate my daughters all that much more.
The meaning is pretty obvious but I'd just like to say... man this song is fucking amazing. It made me ball my eyes out, screaming running the rain kind of sadness. There is so much pain. I never used to understand why people would stop believing in god because of tragic events, but I felt it now and I understand. Absolutely amazing. Fucking fantastic.
I believe its not so much stopping the believe in existance of god than stoping to believe in the benevolence of god. Fantastic song. The whole album. All albums actually. :)