I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
I think I hope I die before my friends do
Because the alternative makes my stomach hurt sometimes
When I say "friends" I mean family I like too
The second tear friends I could horribly get through
Now my life has shame (on me now)
This is not nostalgia, this is not the past
And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash
Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight
Wouldn't it be nice if I could say
"I won't change and you won't change, if we could both agree to stay the same
Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same"
Let me tell you about this crazy list
The best relative order of the people I know's deaths
According to partners, handlings, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera, yeah
So let's be safe because it's on me
I have spacesuits for you and a spacesuit for me
Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone
Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone
This is not nostalgia, this is not the past
And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash
Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight
Wouldn't it be stupid if I were to say
"I won't change and you won't change, and we could both agree to stay the same
Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same"
I hope I die before my friends do
Because the alternative makes my stomach hurt sometimes
When I say "friends" I mean family I like too
The second tear friends I could horribly get through
Now my life has shame (on me now)
This is not nostalgia, this is not the past
And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash
Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight
Wouldn't it be nice if I could say
"I won't change and you won't change, if we could both agree to stay the same
Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same"
Let me tell you about this crazy list
The best relative order of the people I know's deaths
According to partners, handlings, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera, yeah
So let's be safe because it's on me
I have spacesuits for you and a spacesuit for me
Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone
Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone
This is not nostalgia, this is not the past
And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash
Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight
Wouldn't it be stupid if I were to say
"I won't change and you won't change, and we could both agree to stay the same
Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same"
I hope I die before my friends do
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