Too Much Nothing

The lyrics describe perfectly the situation I was/still am in. In short: there's too much nothingness; empty life or at least you feel like your life is empty. This sense of emptiness could be a result of apathy and indifference, which may be linked to depression. 'i'm always excusing myself, but now it's getting hard to tell the reason why i even care, increasingly i'm unaware' is about perfectionism and procrastination, imho. 'instead of bettering myself i'm crawling deeper in my shell', he considers that constant self-improvement is something normal, but now he just can't do it, most likely due to fear of failure. So, he just doesn't do anything and crawls deeper in his shell. He is crawling deeper, hiding from who knows what. 'the whole point that i am alive seems to escape me at this time time', since progress in life has been rendered absolute and it has been replaced with stagnation and aimless wandering in his thoughts, he can't find a reason to live. 'i've never strayed far from the grave nothing too much i need to get up off the ground nothing too much to force myself to make a sound', he's been always near the grave, never lived life fully and always thinking about how mundane and purposeless life is, so he was 'half dead'. Then he ends with the usual conclusion: that he has to do something to get out of this state. Obviously he does not feel like living, since he is just too apathetic, so he KNOWS that he HAS TO get out of this state of stagnation, which is only possible by forcing himself to make a change. I wonder, is it ok if we are 100% subjective with song meanings? Cause this song describes perfectly what I was going through/am still going through. Anyway, a few points are merely personal views and I am fully aware that they lack objectivity. However, the main idea of the consciousness of one's apathetic stagnation and procrastination that keeps the person in the position to constantly question or just wonder why he even cares (or is alive), hand in hand with the recognition of the fact that one keeps looking for excuses for not doing anything, finally leading to the conclusion that this can't go on forever and one must force one's self in order to get out of this vicious cycle still stands.

This is my favorite song on the rereleased XX. It's about wasting your life because you're in a comfortable spot. All he wants to do is further himself and he doesn't understand what keeps him from doing this. I have the same fucking problem.

i had no idea what this song could mean but i agree with adamizer. it makes perfect sense.

who is the guy with the drawl in his voice? sounds like manson

clearly one about depression: being sucked down in a bottomless pit, and trying to hide it and just go on with life, but really making it worse by doing so. being caught up in between thinking about the bad things in life and losing out on all the good ones while doing so. not finding the strength within you to do something about it. just waiting for that feeling to pass you by. thinking, thinking, thinking, without ever improving, doing something, anything... in the end he will have lost out on life completely, having "never strayed far from the grave".

adamizer & lepra messias got it for sure. my favorite mushroomhead song :D

pigbenis666, you talking about jeffrey nothing?

I didn't notice the hog's great bass playing on this song until I got my new boom box.

IT could also mean that putting obsessive thought in things could send you on an emotional downward spiral??? I can relate to a lot of Mushroomhead's lyrics.