If I Had It My Way

I'm always too confused
Or too amused - to face and see these facts
I've dealt and overfelt
With all this useless human contact
Unspoken words - a broken equilibrium
And why can't you see - that your life
Is up to someone other than me
(Chorus)
I'm always last to say the least
And what was you was never me
And if I cried - this all would die
That's if I had it my way
And I always keep you in denial
And yes I know this might take awhile
Before I know that I can smile again
That's if I had it my way
Blackend thoughts - untreated rust
Another useless mind and customs
To believe in - to believe was true
Pretending inside my head
Another reason that I wish
That I was there - with you instead
Of crying out for more