Look at me now, got no religion
Look at me now, I'm so vacant
Look at me now, I was a virgin
Look at me now, grew up to be a whore

And I want it, I believe it

I'm a million different things
And not one you know

Hey, and our mommies are lost now
Hey, daddy's someone else
Hey, and we love the abuse
Because it makes us feel like we are needed now
But I know I wanna disappear

Disappear
I wanna disappear
Disappear, baby

Wanna die young, sell my soul
Use up all your drugs, make me come
Yesterday, man, I was a nihilist
Now today I'm just too fucking bored

And I want it, I believe it
And I want it

By the time I'm old enough
I won't know anything at all

Hey, and our mommies are lost now
Hey, daddy's someone else
Hey, and we love the abuse
Because it makes us feel like we are needed now
But I know I wanna disappear

Disappear
I wanna disappear, baby
Disappear

Hey, and our mommies are lost now
Hey, daddy's someone else
Hey, and we love the abuse
Because it makes us feel like we are needed now
But I know I wanna disappear


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I Want to Disappear Lyrics as written by Jeordie White Brian Hugh Warner

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    the first verse he's saying. "LOOK. look what i've become. got no religion, i was a virgin, grew up to be a whore." he used to have religion and be a little virginal kid. but then he opened his eyes, and became the opposite of what he was. and then "Iwant it. i believe it." saying this is what he wants for himself. being who he is, makes him happy. Then chorus. I'm a million different things and not one you know. -that's pretty self explainatory.

    Hey! And our mommies are lost now. Hey! Daddy's someone else. Hey! And we love the abuse because it make us feel like we are needed. Now, but I know... I wanna disappear -i think, this means, he has changed and seen a different side to our world. and now wants to disappear from it. Not by suicide. since the album is a concept album about the media, "we love the abuse" the media gives us "because it makes us feel like are needed." "but I know.. i want to disappear." get it?

    the second verse says wanna die young, sell my soul, use up all your drugs, make me come/cum. either the media pleasuring us or something like that. i don't quite get that part. but when he says "yesterday i was a nihilist, now today i'm just to fucking bored." I think he's talking about people today who have become so boring. everyone's bored these days. Nihilism is almost an anarchic belief. but "now today, we're just too fucking bored" to stand up for what we believe. we just sort of sit there and watch tv.. maybe this verse is about teenagers? and the effect the media has on us. selling us death, drugs, and sex.

    "By the time i'm old enough, i won't know anything at all." I have no idea what this could mean.. I've been listening to this song since i was 14 and i've never been able to figure this line out. (however, with the recent decline in some of mansons music, i think that's what he means. By the time he's old, he'll have lost his music making skills or SOMETHING.) i have no idea. if someone could help me out, that'd be helpful

    mrsupers7aron September 09, 2009   Link

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