| Red Hot Chili Peppers – Scar Tissue Lyrics | 9 years ago |
| This song reminds me of my best friend, and myself. I never had many friends but the one that I did was amazing. I often described her as "the best thing in my life". I had a bit of a crush on her for a while, which was when I started questioning my sexuality. I never told her about it because I knew she would never like me in that way- she likes boys. I settled with just being her best friend because spending time with her as friends was better than telling her that I had stronger feelings for her and then not being able to see her at all. After a few years of this, when I came out to her, she told me that she could never be okay with it. She said that homosexuality is unnatural and goes against her religion. I never told her how badly her words hurt me. To this day we are still friends, but nothing has been the same since then. I think of her every time I hear this song, especially because I often describe her (in the most affectionate way possible) as a "sarcastic mister know-it-all". The line "blood loss in a bathroom stall" hits hard because I used to have a lot of hatred toward myself and took it out in very negative ways. I was doing much better by the time I was ready to come out but my best friend shunning me the way she did nearly made me want to relapse. After hearing that, I felt extremely lonely because she was the one person I could be myself around. I remember going on walks and ranting out loud to myself on quiet roads where the only ones who could hear me were the birds (hence "with the birds I'll share this lonely view"). "I'll make it to the moon if I have to crawl" reminds me of myself; the road to self-acceptance is long and slow, but I'm well on my way there and I'm confident that I'll make it someday. | |
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