| Evanescence – My Last Breath Lyrics | 19 years ago |
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I used to love this song so much, and I still really do, so I decided to give my version of what it means. Sorry if this has already been said. I labeled what paragraphs went with the verses above so if you didn’t get what I was trying to say, you could find what I was going on about lol. (First three verses) Basically, Amy is in the arms of her lover, and as the title suggests, she seems to be indeed taking her last breaths. She knows this, and seems to be trying to tell her lover this and assuring him that she isn’t afraid of death and that she is going to go to her grave loving him (which might be one way of hers of trying to make it easier on him). I think he may be in denial since she seems to be questioning whether he is listening to her and whether he knows that these truly are her last breaths. She goes on to say that she is thinking of him; that her last thoughts will be focused on him, and then she goes on to say her life is ending now. (4-6 verses) You know how people sometimes start taking about the simple things they loved completely, yet took it all for granted and only realize how important it all really was when they know their time is almost up? I think that’s what Amy is doing now when she begins her talk of the winter and such. “Look for me in the white forest, hiding in a hollow tree” seems to be her hopes that when her lover is hiking through a forest in the winter that he will be reminded of her and the memories and love she left behind. Amy then goes on to say that although he isn’t replying to what she is saying, she knows he hears her because she can taste his tears (that could also mean that she is closer to death…? Like has closed her eyes and she’s only thinking about the winter and such because she’s drifting off or something of the likes and because she doesn’t seem to actually see his tears…? I don’t know. Pure speculation there.). (7-9 verses) Either way, if Amy did close her eyes, this is where she obviously where she reopens them. She sees her lover has gone into complete denial as he shuts his eyes, obviously thinking that this is just and a dream and when he wakes up he’ll find Amy next to him laughing that he actually believed that she was dying- only that doesn’t happen. He reopens his eyes and finds himself still holding the dying Amy (but by the “no one’s there” this could mean that she finally has taken her last breath and the fading to black part could be his image being the last thing she sees as she dies). Either way, he’s afraid and calling out to her, probably pleading with her to stay with him, and she’s trying to will him not to be frightened and just hold her. It ends with her finally gone, and I do agree with whoever else said this was about there being hope after death, and just that even when something terrible like death whisks someone away they aren’t truly gone (when Amy mentions “Look for me in the white forest, holding my last breath” it always seemed to me that she wanted him to remember their memories, and so in that way, she would never truly be gone). Amy seems to be trying to convey hope in her message, and I think she succeeded. Great song, one of my favorites from Fallen. |
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| Evanescence – I Must Be Dreaming Lyrics | 19 years ago |
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Firstly, before I even begin my take on the song after listening to it repeatedly, I must admit I totally adore this song. I’ve heard quite a few of their songs not included in Fallen, and this is definitely one of the top five. Perhaps even number one or two, up there with Even In Death. I love those songs to death. Anyway, onto the point… I obviously have listened to this quite a few times, and this is what I first believed the lyrics to mean and every time I listen to this song, this is what is conjured in my head: “How can I pretend that I don't see What you hide so carelessly?” I think she (whom I will refer to as Amy seeing as she sings the song and basically wrote everything with Ben) has been pretending to not see someone (whom I’ll refer to as Michelle because, well, because it will be less confusing, haha) slitting their wrist for awhile, and is finally saying something to Michelle (who I’m guessing is a friend of Amy’s). The fact that Michelle was trying to hide it sort of pushed me to that idea, although the carelessly part sort of threw me off. I ended up going with Michelle is totally contradicting herself there; she wants to hide her habits, yet she’s screaming for help as well. Maybe Michelle wanted someone (who ended up being Amy) to see what she was doing to herself. “I saw her bleed You heard me breathe So I froze inside myself And turned away I must be dreaming” I think this might be Amy reflecting upon the first time she saw Michelle cut herself. Maybe Amy made some kind of noise and Michelle heard it, but didn’t necessarily see Amy? Or perhaps Michelle did catch Amy and convinced her not to say anything, although the second version makes sense with everything else I’m saying. Either way, I think Amy didn’t know what to do or say at first, and turned away, convincing herself that it was all a lie and when she woke up she would find it was nothing but a dream. “We all live We all die That does not begin to justify you” I think this is Amy truly coming out and saying what she thinks. We all live, yes, and you get to suffer along with us. You get to cry and feel hopeless, but you have tomorrow. You can still find the good and happiness. Amy then goes on to say we all die. I think that was just her saying eventually we all die. “That does not begin to justify you” ties those two together. We’re going to live, and we’re going to die, but you don’t get to decide when. You don’t get to play God. I think Amy is just saying that using some kind of excuse along the lines of “Life was too hard. We all die anyway, so what’s the point of sticking through the bad?” or the likes wasn’t going to cut it. It wasn’t going to justify what Michelle did. “It's not what it seems Not what you think No I must be dreaming It's only in my mind Not in real life No I must be dreaming” I think this is Amy going back and remembering that first time again. She’s remembering Michelle telling her it isn’t what it seems; it’s not what she thinks. Amy is sort of repeating Michelle’s words and telling herself she must be dreaming again. Once again she’s telling herself it’s only in her head. The not in real life part makes me think Amy sort of went into denial. This couldn’t be happening in real life, not to her friend. Maybe Michelle came off as an upbeat, good friend so it seems impossible to Amy that Michelle would be doing that kind of stuff to herself, so Amy goes back to telling herself she’s dreaming. “Help you know I've got to tell someone Tell them what I know you've done I fear you but spoken fears can come true” I think this is where Amy is telling Michelle that she (Amy) has to go to someone and get help for Michelle. Amy is trying to convince Michelle that by letting people know what she knows, she will be helping Michelle in the end. Amy is afraid of Michelle in a way. She’s terrified that by going to someone, Michelle would hate her and with that, their friendship would be gone. The thing is, Amy is even more terrified of telling someone. She’s afraid that if she actually tells someone that she thinks Michelle is killing herself that will really happen. Michelle will kill herself, and Amy will lose her forever that way, and Michelle will hate her for saying anything to begin with as well. Either way, Amy feels like she’s going to lose her friend if she says anything. “We all live We all die That does not begin to justify you It's not what it seems Not what you think No I must be dreaming It's only in my mind Not in real life No I must be dreaming” I think this still means the same as the first time it was said. “Not what it seems Not what you think I must be dreaming” I think these parts being repeated is significant and not just another repetitive part. Michelle is again trying to convince Amy not to say anything. She’s pleading with her not to say anything, even though she sort of wants someone to help her through (which is explained in the first verse by her hiding it carefully). “Just in my mind Not in real life I must be dreaming” I think, in the end, Michelle wins out. With Michelle’s help, Amy convinces herself that it’s all in her head. This couldn’t be happening in her life. Michelle wouldn’t do such a thing to herself, so it has to be some kind of nightmare. Amy lets her fears about what could happen overtake her, and would rather live out her lie and pretend everything is okay even though she knows it is not. Hahaha, I know that was extremely long, but like I said, I adore the song. Very beautiful song, and I personally think Amy Lee’s vocals are incredible. |
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