This is a message that I wrote to Kimmie letting her know how it really meant a lot to me for her accepting me for me being a lesbian and that I was scared to tell her. Also the feelings that I have towards her. Hey Kimmie, What’s up? So I know it has only been one day that I been away from you. Well I wanted to thank you for accepting me for who I am and that you don’t care that I am a gay. I was really scared to tell you. I am not sure why I was scared to tell you that is why I had Brandee tell you. I love you to death I have the huge crush on you. But I know that we would never happen together cause you are straight , you are too old for me it would be illegal for you to be with me, and the fact that you have a boyfriend. Well Brandee to me what Bobbi said about “If i am not gay now that I would be in the future.” or something to that affect. Also the thing that she wrote in my memory book about she hope that I found the rainbow and that she is sure of that and she has her arms wide open for me. So I was going to call you last night but you were at the staff party and I didn’t want to ruin your fun by me calling you. I have been stressed since we had the closing ceremony with the whole Mikey thing and the campers leaving. I think I have cryed a lot in the lasted two days that I have in a really long time. I am really upset about Bertha and Bobbi not coming back next year I love them to death and I just met them this year and it feels like I have known them for awhile. That is the same about you too I really didn’t know but I have known of you. I have became really close to you too. I don’t know want I would do if you don’t come back next year. Brandee doesn’t even know if she will be back next year cause she might be going to Canada or something. Camp just wouldn’t be the same if all of you guys aren’t there next year. It is bad enough that Bertha and Bobbi are for sure not coming back. We need to hang out sometime not even kidding. Brandee, you, and I need to go see a movie together or something because I want to keep in touch with you guys all year around not that crap that always happens where you just talk to the person during the summer. Well I love you a lot and you better be coming back next year. I am definitely going to be there next year. Love, Emily

AUGUST 22, 2008 ME: Hey Bertha!! What's up? So a week from today is the last day that I saw you. It feels like it has been forever since I saw you and I alreay miss you. ( I miss you the day after camp) I was so sad when I found out that you aren't coming back next year but we all need to move on sometime. Well since you aren't going to be at camp next year you are going to have to come visit me. Bobbi is going to come visit me and other people that she likes at camp if she doesn't work part time. Also Bobbi is going to cheer me on at 2 of my cross country meets. Also I wanted you to know I am a lesbian. Alot of people sat that you can't know what you want when you are 16 or whatever. But I know what I want. :) Bobbi told me that you guys already had the idea that I was and that I didn't need to tell you guys. :) Well I miss you tons!!!! :) love, Emily BERTHA: Emily, Hey babygirl ! I miss you too. It was hard for me to leave camp knowing that I may not be able to come back. But no one but God knows what is going to happen tommorrow or any time in the future. If I don't come back, I promise that i will visit you. I hope to be able to come with Bobbi to see you run. I do want to cheer you on. Yea Emily!!!! As for the other thing, ok. We did know. Be safe. Take care of yourself. Keep in touch! :) Bertha

AUGUST 19, 2008 ME: Hey Bobbi, what's up? So I was really upset when I had to leave camp. I really enjoyed eating lunch with you when you sat with red cabin. I was sad when I found out that you weren't going to be there for sure next year. But we all need to move on sometime. It feels like I have known you longer than just this summer. I wish i would have met you a lot sooner that is how awesome I think you are. Prison ball and Nuke won't be the same cause you were the one that always made it so completive. Well I just wanted to answer back to what you wrote in my memory book i already found the rainbow. Alot of people say that I am too young to even know if I am lesbian or not but o well. When you and Bertha were joking with me at the night watch table I wanted to tell you but I just couldn't. It took me forever just to tell Brandee and Kim. Well Hope you have fun starting school on Thursday!!! hope to talk to you soon!!! -Emily BOBBI: Hey Emily! You know, I was upset to leave camp, too, and especially to see you leave! I'm glad you enjoyed my company, since not many people do; apparently, they think I'm too competitive and mean- can you believe that?! Anyway, you're joining good company with me and Bertha, and you didn't have to tell us for us to know. Just be yourself and be happy. I hope your family and friends are supportive of you. You always have me if you need me. And don't feel bad- I was much older when I realized. How is the climate at your school for that kind of news? It's no big deal at Newark, but I imagine it's a bit different at Utica. You know, even if I don't come back full time to camp next year, I'll visit. It's hard to stay away from there- especially if I know you and Kimmie and other people I like will be there! You should try to be a counselor next year! I hope school goes well for you. If you need help with anything, let me know. I will help, but I can't do it for you! =) Also, let me know what sports you're playing, and if/when they games/meets are, and Rach and I will do our best to get out there and support you! Talk to you soon! Bobbi

So tomorrow it will be two weeks since I have been at Camp O'Bannon and also seen my favorite people. Bertha, Bobbi, Emily K., Kimmie, Brandee, and Rachel "Saccy". So while I was there I came out to Kimmie and Brandee. When I came out to Brandee we were sitting on the swing set like usually after the campers went to bed. Well after I told her she was so happy and she told me that Bertha and Bobbi were. Bertha was married at one time to a ladie. Then she told me she only knew Bobbi was cause she ate a girl out once. so when it was the night of the dress reheral of charlie brown after it was over I had Brandee tell Kimmie for me and Kimmie was so happy she was going to give me a hug but I was already in the van on my way back to camp. Then the lasted night at camp we were all write in our memory books and I had Bobbi write in mine and she wrote. "Emily, I am hope you found the rainbow someday, I'm sure. My arms are wide open. love Bobbi". Then when camp was all over I tried to add her to Myspace but she couldn't cause she as a policy about add people undeer 18. But she gave me her email so I could email her. so I emailed her and told her that I already found the rainbow she was happy for me cause she didn't found out til later in life that she was.she told me that I didn't have to tell her cause she already knew. Then after a week passed of not being at camp I came out to Bertha she was happy for me. I told her that Bobbi said that I don't need to tell you guys that I was lesbian and bertha said Bobbi was right they did already knew. but Bertha wants to come to couple of my meets to cheer me on.