To me,
this song is about her mourning her brother passing when she was a child, (watched some interviews about how hard it was for sierra dealing with her brother passing)
and how she felt alone and deserted to deal with the pain, she feels lonely, deserted, she must of felt like her mother wasn't there to support her properly during her mourning hence she sees herself as an orphan child:
I never really ever thought it had to do with prostitution but now that I've looked at it properly, I do think she is reminiscing and almost comparing how lonely and empty she feels during the act of "selling her love" to the passing of her brother:
Now that I'm alone I feel the lonely brokenness
Of all the wicked avenues I've ever sold my love on
All these moments of meekness and trembling subsided
I'm the outright abandon of this orphan child
in this paragraph she's painting a picture about her thoughts that ran through her head as an innocent and fragile child, it's about her breaking out of this depression but she refers to it as a "he" as a form of metaphor.
How she'd view the pain so immense as a child would describe it "don't know if baby dinosaurs Maybe could live through it":
He's my evil shadow dove
My black Palamito - (yes this does mean swan or bird in spanish but its "palomito)
Can't break him like a diamond skull
I can't seem to do so
Can't just rob him out like the
Mob used to do so
Like memories of porno and tea stains
And tobacco O it's a mini disastro
Bigger than the ice age don't know if baby dinosaurs
Maybe could live through it, like Indians and butterflies
What's crushed is my spirit, Oh I fear it is too fragile
Like fall leaves burn like paper
when they sing this part they have a child like voice, seems as if she feel like she's she feels better off to go and live with animals to live a much free and simpler life:
I always knew I would spend a lot of time alone
No one would understand me
Maybe I should go and live amongst the animals
Spend all my time amongst the animals
And on the tracks I would go they lead to the sea
To be amongst the animals
this paragraph I feel as if here she almost looking at it from a 3rd persons point of view and looking at herself as a child, how she looks so much like her mother "I look like his mother" (as in she looks like her own mother her brothers mother also) and "Slow motion I cling to my child desperate for love" she's giving herself a hug.
Oh I'm just a fall leaf something simple and shy like that
That's how my heart lies down beside the sidewalk
Like an empty restaurant filled with perfume and balloons
I sit and entertain the bizarre guests of my soul
His name still lingers maybe lactates on my tongue
Perhaps I'm just teethin' for a foreign fallen destiny
Miserable but mine, I look like his mother
Or Sophia Loren in an old fashioned movie
Slow motion I cling to my child desperate for love
One day soon my brother died, made me remember all the
Subordinate feelings I cast aside
Maybe I had lied when I said I was ok
Just getting along like a little song that stops to sing and say
"Wild willow, windy winter won't you blow through me
My whole eternity"
The song is ended with her blowing the memories away:
"Wild willow, windy winter won't you blow through me
My whole eternity"
To me, this song is about her mourning her brother passing when she was a child, (watched some interviews about how hard it was for sierra dealing with her brother passing) and how she felt alone and deserted to deal with the pain, she feels lonely, deserted, she must of felt like her mother wasn't there to support her properly during her mourning hence she sees herself as an orphan child: I never really ever thought it had to do with prostitution but now that I've looked at it properly, I do think she is reminiscing and almost comparing how lonely and empty she feels during the act of "selling her love" to the passing of her brother: Now that I'm alone I feel the lonely brokenness Of all the wicked avenues I've ever sold my love on All these moments of meekness and trembling subsided I'm the outright abandon of this orphan child
in this paragraph she's painting a picture about her thoughts that ran through her head as an innocent and fragile child, it's about her breaking out of this depression but she refers to it as a "he" as a form of metaphor. How she'd view the pain so immense as a child would describe it "don't know if baby dinosaurs Maybe could live through it": He's my evil shadow dove My black Palamito - (yes this does mean swan or bird in spanish but its "palomito) Can't break him like a diamond skull I can't seem to do so Can't just rob him out like the Mob used to do so Like memories of porno and tea stains And tobacco O it's a mini disastro Bigger than the ice age don't know if baby dinosaurs Maybe could live through it, like Indians and butterflies What's crushed is my spirit, Oh I fear it is too fragile Like fall leaves burn like paper
when they sing this part they have a child like voice, seems as if she feel like she's she feels better off to go and live with animals to live a much free and simpler life: I always knew I would spend a lot of time alone No one would understand me Maybe I should go and live amongst the animals Spend all my time amongst the animals And on the tracks I would go they lead to the sea To be amongst the animals
this paragraph I feel as if here she almost looking at it from a 3rd persons point of view and looking at herself as a child, how she looks so much like her mother "I look like his mother" (as in she looks like her own mother her brothers mother also) and "Slow motion I cling to my child desperate for love" she's giving herself a hug.
Oh I'm just a fall leaf something simple and shy like that That's how my heart lies down beside the sidewalk Like an empty restaurant filled with perfume and balloons I sit and entertain the bizarre guests of my soul His name still lingers maybe lactates on my tongue Perhaps I'm just teethin' for a foreign fallen destiny Miserable but mine, I look like his mother Or Sophia Loren in an old fashioned movie Slow motion I cling to my child desperate for love One day soon my brother died, made me remember all the Subordinate feelings I cast aside Maybe I had lied when I said I was ok Just getting along like a little song that stops to sing and say "Wild willow, windy winter won't you blow through me My whole eternity"
The song is ended with her blowing the memories away: "Wild willow, windy winter won't you blow through me My whole eternity"