i think it's about going through this phase where you trying to come to terms with everything that changed, you are trying hard to remember your older, more sensible self. but you're also embracing the current self and being a little cynical yet humorous about it (laughing with a mouth of blood).
it all happened so fast that you can no longer see your future. for now you just want to get by by living in a motel, sitting at the bottom of a pool with no water in it. but you're not depressed. you're just recovering. that's why you are telling your sister that you miss her, and giving a piece of advice to your brother that everything gets easier after a while, the pain recedes.
the only bitter part is the realization that your friends aren't really all that friendly when you're kind of down. they probably keep away. so you're left there, wounded but cynically laughing with a mouth of blood, taking it as a part of life.
i think it's about going through this phase where you trying to come to terms with everything that changed, you are trying hard to remember your older, more sensible self. but you're also embracing the current self and being a little cynical yet humorous about it (laughing with a mouth of blood). it all happened so fast that you can no longer see your future. for now you just want to get by by living in a motel, sitting at the bottom of a pool with no water in it. but you're not depressed. you're just recovering. that's why you are telling your sister that you miss her, and giving a piece of advice to your brother that everything gets easier after a while, the pain recedes. the only bitter part is the realization that your friends aren't really all that friendly when you're kind of down. they probably keep away. so you're left there, wounded but cynically laughing with a mouth of blood, taking it as a part of life.