to me this is more than sex. i can relate to this directly; i am in love with someone who's in a [nearly permanent] relationship. i constantly think about them, 'obsess', if you will. but it's pointless, i can't "get any big ideas, cuz they're not gonna happen". i "pain myself white" - white being the symbol of innocence. i pretend i didn't feel anything towards him, but that i deserve him. so i "fill up with noise" to forget. but no matter what i do, or how satisfied i am with my life "there'll still be something missing" since we met. "now that i've found it" [love], "it's gone" because i can't have it. "now that i feel it" [happiness], "i don't" because it pains me with guilt to see/think of him. "i've gone off the rails", i've lost my balance. what i thought was hard just became harder knowing him. i don't know how to live anymore, i've forgotten what i did before we met. "i'll go to hell for what my mind is thinking", to confess my feelings will lead to a greater disaster.
@toriephotographie I\'m so sorry, I\'ve experienced a relationship where the other would not love me (personality disorder). I hope you loved yourself enough to get out.
@toriephotographie I\'m so sorry, I\'ve experienced a relationship where the other would not love me (personality disorder). I hope you loved yourself enough to get out.
to me this is more than sex. i can relate to this directly; i am in love with someone who's in a [nearly permanent] relationship. i constantly think about them, 'obsess', if you will. but it's pointless, i can't "get any big ideas, cuz they're not gonna happen". i "pain myself white" - white being the symbol of innocence. i pretend i didn't feel anything towards him, but that i deserve him. so i "fill up with noise" to forget. but no matter what i do, or how satisfied i am with my life "there'll still be something missing" since we met. "now that i've found it" [love], "it's gone" because i can't have it. "now that i feel it" [happiness], "i don't" because it pains me with guilt to see/think of him. "i've gone off the rails", i've lost my balance. what i thought was hard just became harder knowing him. i don't know how to live anymore, i've forgotten what i did before we met. "i'll go to hell for what my mind is thinking", to confess my feelings will lead to a greater disaster.
@toriephotographie RIP
@toriephotographie RIP
@toriephotographie I\'m so sorry, I\'ve experienced a relationship where the other would not love me (personality disorder). I hope you loved yourself enough to get out.
@toriephotographie I\'m so sorry, I\'ve experienced a relationship where the other would not love me (personality disorder). I hope you loved yourself enough to get out.