"I knew this would be hell but this is not living"
He knew that spending a life in solitary wouldn't be fun, "but this is not living" because theres no point if you have no friends to be by your.
"push them down and exhale water
push them down and exhale blood"
The more you push them away the harder it gets for you to "breathe" (the harder life gets)
"you wanted this"
Pretty much speaks for itself
"and if we cant even trust ourselves how can we trust
anyone else"
Also speaks for itself...he chose to live a life as a loner because he doesn't tust anyone, he hardly trusts himself.
"it's not safe to swim today, it's not safe"
'swim' being venture out into the world. he wants to go out, but he continues to remain alone, in fear that something bad will happen if he goes out.
"i don't think i can be saved"
Again like the last line - he never thinks he can stop being alone, although he wants to.
"this shallow water is my grave"
He has come to the conclusion he will forever live in the 'shallow water', being his home and his lonliness, where there is less chance of 'drowning'
Another thought is perhaps it is someone who lives a life of hatred, and constantly he thinks of commiting suicide, his thoughts through the day as he plans to suicide, why he wants to, and his final decision. I think my first idea was right though. I kind of feel the first idea when I listen to the song too.
I think it's about being alone in the world.
"I knew this would be hell but this is not living"
He knew that spending a life in solitary wouldn't be fun, "but this is not living" because theres no point if you have no friends to be by your.
"push them down and exhale water push them down and exhale blood"
The more you push them away the harder it gets for you to "breathe" (the harder life gets)
"you wanted this" Pretty much speaks for itself
"and if we cant even trust ourselves how can we trust anyone else" Also speaks for itself...he chose to live a life as a loner because he doesn't tust anyone, he hardly trusts himself.
"it's not safe to swim today, it's not safe" 'swim' being venture out into the world. he wants to go out, but he continues to remain alone, in fear that something bad will happen if he goes out.
"i don't think i can be saved" Again like the last line - he never thinks he can stop being alone, although he wants to.
"this shallow water is my grave" He has come to the conclusion he will forever live in the 'shallow water', being his home and his lonliness, where there is less chance of 'drowning'
Another thought is perhaps it is someone who lives a life of hatred, and constantly he thinks of commiting suicide, his thoughts through the day as he plans to suicide, why he wants to, and his final decision. I think my first idea was right though. I kind of feel the first idea when I listen to the song too.