This song is intensely sad to me.
It reminds me of my childhood, when I spent a lot of time alone and depressed because everyone hated me or I thought that everyone hated me. "Nobody likes me everybody hates me guess I'll go eat worms" was something that I constantly sang to myself in this state, and the chorus directly reminds me of it.
The song in general, I think, is about wallowing in one's own misery. It seems like a detailed introspective study of a terrible mood. Maybe it's about mourning, or maybe the mourning is just the trigger for a deep depression.
Some things that stand out to me:
"Home is on the highway living on soft bread and solace"
I read somewhere that their mother moved one or both of the girls around constantly, from state to state, during her/their childhood. Thus, home is on the highway. Having lived this myself as a child, living on soft bread and solace is, well, what you do.
"I guess I'm waiting for nightfall or a solar eclipse
And to wake up half empty
Only to be filled again with mourning"
This is about just wanting to be asleep, so that you don't have to face things. You don't want to wake up in the morning. You don't want to face the day. You just want to be able to sleep forever.
"Like an empty restaurant filled with perfume and balloons
I sit and entertain the bizarro ghosts of my soul"
To make a point of saying that you feel like an empty restaurant is interesting. Clearly it's all about putting on a show and pretending to be normal and happy and all of this business, but restaurant specifically? Interesting. And the bizarro ghosts of my soul, again, is all about introspective wallowing. She's passively letting her emotions and memories and depression take her over.
& also, I see a lot of references to childhood in here.
This song is intensely sad to me. It reminds me of my childhood, when I spent a lot of time alone and depressed because everyone hated me or I thought that everyone hated me. "Nobody likes me everybody hates me guess I'll go eat worms" was something that I constantly sang to myself in this state, and the chorus directly reminds me of it.
The song in general, I think, is about wallowing in one's own misery. It seems like a detailed introspective study of a terrible mood. Maybe it's about mourning, or maybe the mourning is just the trigger for a deep depression.
Some things that stand out to me: "Home is on the highway living on soft bread and solace" I read somewhere that their mother moved one or both of the girls around constantly, from state to state, during her/their childhood. Thus, home is on the highway. Having lived this myself as a child, living on soft bread and solace is, well, what you do.
"I guess I'm waiting for nightfall or a solar eclipse And to wake up half empty Only to be filled again with mourning" This is about just wanting to be asleep, so that you don't have to face things. You don't want to wake up in the morning. You don't want to face the day. You just want to be able to sleep forever.
"Like an empty restaurant filled with perfume and balloons I sit and entertain the bizarro ghosts of my soul" To make a point of saying that you feel like an empty restaurant is interesting. Clearly it's all about putting on a show and pretending to be normal and happy and all of this business, but restaurant specifically? Interesting. And the bizarro ghosts of my soul, again, is all about introspective wallowing. She's passively letting her emotions and memories and depression take her over.
& also, I see a lot of references to childhood in here.