The person is writing about being famous, and everyone's watching. She feels choked by all of it. But then someone is telling her how she wanted this before but now she wants to find something "real". I think she's referring to God, who she wants to find.
The person is writing about being famous, and everyone's watching. She feels choked by all of it. But then someone is telling her how she wanted this before but now she wants to find something "real". I think she's referring to God, who she wants to find.