Sometimes it seems like everything is so hard, and takes so much time. its not hard to feel death calling, or the waves redy to sweep you out so you dont' have to deal with anything again. I don't think the childs parents died, those references are metaphorical. he wants a soft motherly hand to sooth him, and he wants his father to show him how to do things, and maybe neither of his actual parents are willing to do that for him. as a child something happened thats happened tons of times before, but he almost gave up, willing to let life just do whatever it wants wiht him. and now he's older, and feeling that drifting through life is almost worse than oblivion.
Sometimes it seems like everything is so hard, and takes so much time. its not hard to feel death calling, or the waves redy to sweep you out so you dont' have to deal with anything again. I don't think the childs parents died, those references are metaphorical. he wants a soft motherly hand to sooth him, and he wants his father to show him how to do things, and maybe neither of his actual parents are willing to do that for him. as a child something happened thats happened tons of times before, but he almost gave up, willing to let life just do whatever it wants wiht him. and now he's older, and feeling that drifting through life is almost worse than oblivion.