Excerpts from various notes strewn around the bedroom of April Connolly:

"Why I should leave . . . no - why I'm leaving you for him. Well, let's see here . . . well, let's see: where should I begin? Every night you get annihilated with all your friends,and every night I drink alone until you stumble home wanting some - like some fuck and run. I know you sleep around, I see it in the eyes of those girls. Those fucking girls . . . they smile and nod, but never offer a single word - I'm just in the way - I'm the ball and chain, you're the jailbird chirping, 'How hard life is in the cage!' How hard it is waking up next to me. Well, you've dug this hole, come on and fill me up. When you said you loved me, I knew I was getting fucked. You said you'd never let go - all that stopped . . . you used to turn me on, now we're just getting off. That's why I am leaving you."

And the drunken, erratic response from April's ex-boyfriend Trevor Post upon finding said various notes:

"You really, really think this guy is going to make it all right? You told me you could never be in love with another man, 'Oh but this one is it!' But I remember when we met, we knew that this was the end. Yeah I remember - I remember everything - The haircuts, the dollar movies. We used to sneak a six pack in your bag, and wait for a girl to scream or a car to crash so we could crack open our cans. Or the the time you shaved my head in the front yard; a passerby stopped to take a picture - we ended up in the paper. And now you want to leave? Well, maybe I forgot a couple things, it doesn't mean I don't remember how it feels when you're laying naked next to me. Valentine, I want to feel your hips pressed up against mine. We'll push into each other - love's alive. It might be fleeting, but it's ours and it's tonight . . . so won't you reconsider love-lost lives? You might be lonely, but I'm still by your side. You might have to leave, but not tonight."

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Excerpts from Various Notes Strewn Around the Bedroom of April Connolly song meanings
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    General Commentbrilliant.
    kris xxxon May 21, 2002   Link
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    General Commentbeautiful
    dan.on May 26, 2002   Link
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    General Commentso honest, this song gives me chills. seriously.
    chloroformxxperfumeon June 07, 2002   Link
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    General Commentditto on the chills. these lyrics are genius. i hate religion, but i would have no problem attending a church to worship tim kasher on a regular basis.
    Bacio24on June 10, 2002   Link
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    General Commenti'm down with that church idea!
    dan.on June 14, 2002   Link
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    General Commentdamn...sounds like shit that im goin through right now
    emokid9800on June 19, 2002   Link
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    General CommentThe first Cursive song i ever heard, and it still might be my favorite. I honestly had no idea a band could be this great. Ive listened to a burned cd of Domestica and the 8 Teeth To Eat You split over and over again the past couple weeks, and each time, i look forward to listening to it. I especially think that the songs on 8 teeth are their best yet, and cant wait for whenever they release a new cd, the cello sounds amazing. This band has some of the greatest lyrics ive ever read, and unlike some other "emo" bands, they've got powerful and beautiful music to back it up. Now i don't have to think about it when someone asks who my favorite band is. And now, im going to do some blatant advertising, so excuse me. Please try to take your eyes off the wonders that are Cursive's lyrics, and come check out Jaded Teenager's lyrics. That's my band, by the way. They're here on Songmeanings, which honest to God, is the greatest lyrics site out there, but everybody here already knows that. Wow, Cursive is great. Much better than I could hope to be.
    BecauseTylerKnowson July 03, 2002   Link
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    General Commentmy favourite part . . ."Well, maybe I forgot a couple things, it doesn't mean I don't remember how it feels when you're laying naked next to me. Valentine, I want to feel your hips pressed up against mine. We'll push into eachother - love's alive." . . . genious
    i-like-music-a-loton July 31, 2002   Link
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    General Commentwhere do i get this song and where do i get a burnable version?
    onspie1234on August 14, 2002   Link
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    General Commentdoes anyone know if these lyrics are "real"?
    that is, was there an april connelly? well, if the notes are real that probably wasn't her real name, but you get the picture. anyone know?
    antiaktivon August 14, 2002   Link

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