This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
How many days can I survive
When all the time I know if I explode all the madmen will be at my side?
We'll gather at night under the moonlight
To tap upon the nerve all of the undisturbed will
Finally get what they deserve
It shows that I've lost what made me feel pure
The child that was gifted matured to this twisted form
But I'm not the only one
Fit to defend, but why give in
Sit back, relax, throw down your arms hush the alarm
And let the confusion sink in
It took several days, but while the band played
A couple fell to earth, four children burst, and everyone was on the loose again
I'm bored with this feeling of insecure
A head full of voices that won't stand to be ignored
But, I'm not the only one
You're feeling thin, so eat the men
Deny the freaks their own time
Blessed simpletons all hand-in-hand await the end of time
Why have I been given this life I can't understand
Questions fuel my delusions and leave me banging my head
Over and over again
I'm not the only one
How many days can I survive
when all the time I know if I explode all the madmen will be at my side?
We'll gather at night under the moonlight
To tap upon the nerve all of the undisturbed will
Finally get what they deserve
I'm bored with this feeling of insecure
A head full of voices that won't stand to be ignored
But, I'm not the only one
Take my hand
I can build you up
Cross over close your eyes and rest upon the shore
Let the sun shine
I want more
It shows that I've lost what made me feel pure
The child that was gifted matured to this twisted form
But I'm not the only one
When all the time I know if I explode all the madmen will be at my side?
We'll gather at night under the moonlight
To tap upon the nerve all of the undisturbed will
Finally get what they deserve
It shows that I've lost what made me feel pure
The child that was gifted matured to this twisted form
But I'm not the only one
Fit to defend, but why give in
Sit back, relax, throw down your arms hush the alarm
And let the confusion sink in
It took several days, but while the band played
A couple fell to earth, four children burst, and everyone was on the loose again
I'm bored with this feeling of insecure
A head full of voices that won't stand to be ignored
But, I'm not the only one
You're feeling thin, so eat the men
Deny the freaks their own time
Blessed simpletons all hand-in-hand await the end of time
Why have I been given this life I can't understand
Questions fuel my delusions and leave me banging my head
Over and over again
I'm not the only one
How many days can I survive
when all the time I know if I explode all the madmen will be at my side?
We'll gather at night under the moonlight
To tap upon the nerve all of the undisturbed will
Finally get what they deserve
I'm bored with this feeling of insecure
A head full of voices that won't stand to be ignored
But, I'm not the only one
Take my hand
I can build you up
Cross over close your eyes and rest upon the shore
Let the sun shine
I want more
It shows that I've lost what made me feel pure
The child that was gifted matured to this twisted form
But I'm not the only one
Lyrics submitted by Demau Senae
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