This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Jesus, I
Jesus, i've taken my cross
i'll leave and follow me
jesus, i've taken my cross
i'll leave and follow me
destitutes, despise, forsaken
i'll leave and follow me
i'll leave and follow me
jesus
perish every fool division
all i've sought and hope to know
yell out which is my commission
god and heaven i'm on my own
god and heaven i'm on my own
man mad trouble to distress me
to drive this heart to the cross
man made trouble to distress me
to drive my heart to the cross
resolute, reborn, reborn
reborn, reborn, reborn, reborn
jesus, i've taken my cross
i'll leave and follow me
jesus, i've taken my cross
i'll leave and follow me
perish every fool division
all i've sought and hope to know
yell out which is my commission
god and heaven i'm on my own
i'm waiting for my man
26 hours in my hand
hey white boy
what you doin' downtown
hey white boy
what you doin' chasing all the pretty women around
downtown, downtown, downtown
gonna hitch a ride
downtown, downtown, downtown
gonna hitch a ride
hitchin' a ride
hitchin' a ride
hitchin' a ride
itchin' to die
hitchin' a ride
itchin' to die
hitchin' a ride
itchin' to die
jesus
jesus
i'm resolute, reborn
{?}
forsaken, {?}
destroyed, resolute
reborn, reborn
reborn, reborn
reborn
jesus
j-e-s-u-s
jesus
j-e-s-u-s
jesus
j-e-s-u-s
jesus
Jesus, i've taken my cross
i'll leave and follow me
jesus, i've taken my cross
i'll leave and follow me
destitutes, despise, forsaken
i'll leave and follow me
i'll leave and follow me
jesus
perish every fool division
all i've sought and hope to know
yell out which is my commission
god and heaven i'm on my own
god and heaven i'm on my own
man mad trouble to distress me
to drive this heart to the cross
man made trouble to distress me
to drive my heart to the cross
resolute, reborn, reborn
reborn, reborn, reborn, reborn
jesus, i've taken my cross
i'll leave and follow me
jesus, i've taken my cross
i'll leave and follow me
perish every fool division
all i've sought and hope to know
yell out which is my commission
god and heaven i'm on my own
i'm waiting for my man
26 hours in my hand
hey white boy
what you doin' downtown
hey white boy
what you doin' chasing all the pretty women around
downtown, downtown, downtown
gonna hitch a ride
downtown, downtown, downtown
gonna hitch a ride
hitchin' a ride
hitchin' a ride
hitchin' a ride
itchin' to die
hitchin' a ride
itchin' to die
hitchin' a ride
itchin' to die
jesus
jesus
i'm resolute, reborn
{?}
forsaken, {?}
destroyed, resolute
reborn, reborn
reborn, reborn
reborn
jesus
j-e-s-u-s
jesus
j-e-s-u-s
jesus
j-e-s-u-s
jesus
Lyrics submitted by WriGGaLo
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Actually, the correct lyric is "follow THEE"...it's taken from an old gospel hymn...Billy just made a new version. I find the numerous references to God on this CD really interesting...and I would love to talk to Billy about it, if I ever had the chance.
Yes, I believe it's also "God and heaven are all my own" if I'm correct.
Ah, the sign of a "true" fan...appriciates the musician no matter what they do...oh wait, that's not what drummerchick's doing...my mistake....
I think jimmy does a great job on Jesus, I/Mary Star of the Sea. He plays thru the whole song without any pauses.
It definitely does seem like a Christian song, it seems like alot of people are hesitant to accept that but to each their own and all that.
LOL. Ya think? If they're hesitant to accept it than they simply cannot read. I'm guessing anyone who does not believe in God would have little interest in a song like this one other than to ridicule it. And if they ridicule, it's because they are small-minded bigots, no different than if they were ridiculing a song about blacks; strong women; atheists; etc.
This song is about Billy coming back. He left the the "religion" (Smashing Pumpkins) and a new "religion" (ZWAN) is born.
It's nothing Christian about this song. Billy's old religion is Smashing pumpkin. He has taken his cross and started the new religion ZWAN.
lamby has an interesting point not sure whether it's right but something to think about. the person who posted this song got lots of the lyrics wrong. It's an obscure old hymn in an antique religious book that Billy bought. The song is awesome - 14 minutes of prog-rock perfection. JxPx i agree with you. I doubt Billy Corgan is a Christian, but if youre that anti-Christian that youd stop listening if he did, youve got problems
Jesus I / Mary Star Of The Sea
jesus, i've taken my cross all to leave and follow thee jesus, i've taken my cross all to leave and follow thee
i'm destitute, despised, forsaken all to leave and follow thee and follow thee
man may trouble to distress me to drive my heart to the cross yeah, man may trouble to distress me to drive this heart to the cross
i'm resolute, reviled, forsaken all to leave and follow thee and follow thee
jesus jesus jesus reborn reborn reborn reborn
so perish every fond ambition god and trouble are all i've known yet how rich is my condition god and heaven are all my own god and heaven are all my own
rooms full of salt fault my pluck and a poets charm so far, ever far little stars that burn the holes in my soul
and everything just feels like rain the road we're on, the things we crave and everything just feels like rain the nights i sleep, what's left to dream when everything feels like rain
drift as i dive find the deep out of reach of all light stars, ever far listless tides along the changing shore
and everything just feels like rain the road we're on, the things we crave and everything just feels like rain if i should sleep, what's left to dream when everything feels like rain
Billy didn't actually write this song. some parts were taken from a lou reed song and someone else by the name "lyte". Remember, Zwan is not all controlled by Billy, and thats what he likes as opposed the pumpkins where he had almost all creative controll. I think of this song as more of a revolution within yourself, than conforming to a certain religion.