"By Myself" as written by Mike Shinoda, Brad Delson, Chester Charles Bennington, Joseph Hahn and Robert G. Bourdon....
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (myself)

I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself (myself)
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on.
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin.
It's all too much to take in.
I can't hold on.
To end things watching everything spin.
With thoughts of failure sinking in.

If I turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me 'till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
By myself (myself)

I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself (myself)
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on.
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin.
It's all too much to take in.
I can't hold on.
To end things watching everything spin.
With thoughts of failure sinking in.

How do you think
I've lost so much
I'm so afraid
I'm out of touch
How do you expect
I will know what to do
When all I know
Is what you tell me to

Don't you
I can't tell you how to make it
No matter what I do
How hard I
I can't seem to convince myself
I'm stuck on the outside
Don't you
I can't tell you how to make it
No matter what I do
How hard I
I can't seem to convince myself
I'm stuck on the outside

I can't hold on
(To what I want when I'm stretched so thin)
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
(To anything watching everything spin)
Without some failure sinking

I can't hold on
(To what I want when I'm stretched so thin)
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
(To anything watching everything spin)
Without some failure sinking


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"By Myself" as written by Brad Delson Mike Shinoda

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  • +7
    General CommentThis song is about someone who has had many bad experiences and failures in his life. Even when things should have gone right for him, it went wrong.

    So now he feels that when he faces any new challenge in life he will fail at it no matter what. It could be anything from a job interview to a new relationship.

    He feels that even if he tries his best and does everything right, something will come along and ruin things. Or if he sits back and lets fate take control, he will fail anyway. So in his mind he is paranoid and very pessimistic. He is his own worst enemy and can’t rely on himself.


    So the song is describing how he feels when he is faces a new challenge in life. He is very pessismistic and thinks he will fail at this new task no matter what. It could be anything from a job interview to a new relationship.

    So he has become his own worst enemy. Because he think
    almosteasyon September 26, 2008   Link
  • +2
    General Commentdaddysgirl: I don't understand your logic at all. Since "preps" like them you don't anymore. Why let someone else's likes/dislikes influence yours?
    Will.i.amon August 25, 2002   Link
  • +2
    General CommentQuite simply this song is about having very low self-esteem, that's why it rings true with so many of us. It's about being caught in that catch-22 of attempting to just be yourself but getting devoured for such vulnerability or otherwise faking it in order too impress the crowd but losing connection with yourself and compromising your own identity. Basically either being hated by the crowd or being hated by yourself but either way losing because you are aware of the problem but have no idea of the solution thus thoughts of failure sinking in. I don't know of another song that captures so well the private hell introspective people with such low self-esteem go through. If this song resonates with you then please read up on self-esteem and make it a focus of your study. I have done and am very happy to say that I have moved on from the feelings of this song. I listened to it today and cried over how much pain I used to be in. Don't worry even if you gain self-esteem you will still enjoy this song, it just won't indulge your anger as much.
    happysappy21on March 19, 2010   Link
  • +2
    General CommentThe () is my interpreation

    What do I do to ignore what's behind me?
    (He knows that he worries too much about what they think about him, and he don’t know how to ignore theirs opinion, so he just like everyone else tries to fit in)

    Do I follow my instincts blindly?
    (He knows that he just let his emotions, fears and worries take control of him, and he knows that he has to deny himself to be a part of the carousel)

    Do I hide my pride away from these bad dreams
    And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
    (He’s afraid that if he is laidback and go through his pain and is himself a bit more that it will makes him feel that it’s harder to put on the facade again, ´cause the more he goes through the pain the less energy and will he has to put on his daily façade to deny himself, so he doesn’t want to heal himself completely or else he just going to be wrapped up thinking about the pain he caused himself and not be able to forgive himself)

    Do I let it go and try to stand it?
    (He’s afraid that the pain will be so huge that he will not be able to go through it, ´cause he’s already so used to being in denial and set his real emotions on fire so he can at least have a little fun without being himself, he wants to be flawless)
    Or do I try to catch them red handed?
    Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
    (He’s afraid that if he trust someone with all his real thoughts and go through his real pain that they are just going to use his insecurity and then ditch him, he should know that if they did that, they ditch him ´cause they have the same pain as he does, and that they are ditching him to conceal their own pain)

    Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
    (So he wonders if he have to go through the pain by himself without any other involved even though he wants someone with him ´cause he’s afraid of going through all that by himself)

    Cause I can’t hold when I'm stretched so thin
    (He feels like he’s afraid of being himself on his own, ´cause he don’t like who he really is, that’s why feels like it easier to most of the time deny himself)

    I make the right moves but I’m lost within
    (He knows that everyone thinks he do the right things, he gets popular for it but he still have the same pain and worry and lack of independent inside of him)

    I put on my daily facade but then
    I just end up getting hurt again
    (He feels like it’s sad that he needs to put on a daily façade to be appreciated by others)

    By myself
    I ask why, but in my mind
    I find I can’t rely on myself
    (He realize that he’s afraid of going through it all alone, therefore it’s obvious that he can’t even accept himself and don’t want to acknowledge himself, and that what worries him, he leaves himself completely to please others and that’s because he needs others)

    I can’t hold on
    To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
    It’s all too much to take in
    (He feels like when he’s by himself, it’s all too much to take in, it’s like going from his daily façade, his dream personality, to his raw, ugly form, and when he sees his raw form, he once again wants to leave, ´cause he can’t let his illusion of his perfect self go, so he doesn’t know how to change himself, but in his mind he knows that he may be can be independent by going through himself and the pain, but he’s afraid of doing that, ´cause he feels like no one else is doing that and he feels like its too much burden to carry the truth on his shoulders)

    I can’t hold on
    To anything watching everything spin
    (He feels like he just follow the stream and watches everything spin)

    With thoughts of failure sinking in
    (He wonders if peoples going to found out how he really feels and is)

    If I turn my back I’m defenseless
    (He feels like he´s defenseless if he shows his real self to others, if he shows his vulnerability in front of his friends, and he’s afraid that they will hurt him)

    And to give in to fate seems senseless
    (He’s afraid of losing control and let things be as they are, and he’s afraid that fate will let him down)

    If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
    Take from me till everything is gone
    (He’s afraid that if he shows his vulnerability and his feelings that they will reject him and makes him more vulnerable than he was before, and if he get a rejection from them, he will be alone, and he’s afraid of being alone)

    If I let them go I’ll be outdone
    (He knows that if he let things be, he would care less about them, he won the deeper level but lost everything else)

    But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
    (If he tries to fit in with them again he knows that they will reject him for the rest of their life’s)

    If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
    Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
    (This can mean two things: One; They will not letting him go and tries to control him and tries to bury him mentally ´cause he has all the answers,
    Two; He consider to kill himself, his raw form, bury the answers and sell his soul so he can be with others)

    By myself
    I ask why, but in my mind
    I find I can’t rely on myself
    (He realize that he’s afraid of going through it all alone, therefore it’s obvious that he can’t even accept himself and don’t want to acknowledge himself, and that what worries him, he leaves himself completely to please others and that’s because he needs others)

    I can’t hold on
    To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
    It’s all too much to take in
    (He feels like when he’s by himself, it’s all too much to take in, it’s like going from his daily façade, his dream personality, to his raw, ugly form, and when he sees his raw form, he once again wants to leave, ´cause he can’t let his illusion of his perfect self go, so he doesn’t know how to change himself, but in his mind he knows that he may be can be independent by going through himself and the pain, but he’s afraid of doing that, ´cause he feels like no one else is doing that and he feels like its too much burden to carry the truth on his shoulders)

    I can’t hold on
    To anything watching everything spin
    (He feels like he just follow the stream and watches everything spin)

    With thoughts of failure sinking in
    (He wonders if peoples going to found out how he really feels and is)

    How do you think I’ve lost so much
    (He can’t lose anything but himself, ´cause he sacrifices himself)

    I’m so afraid that I’m out of touch
    How do you expect I will know what to do
    When all I know is what you tell me to
    (He doesn’t know how to do, so he do what other people do)

    Don’t you know I can’t tell you how to make it go
    (He is frustrated that he doesn’t know how to feel better)

    No matter what I do, how hard I try
    I can’t seem to convince myself why
    (He can’t go away from his daily facade)

    I’m stuck on the outside (x2)
    (so he’s stuck on the outside, ´cause he refuse to deal with his inner problems)
    Monreflectionson April 25, 2010   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI can't explain exactly how this song makes me feel, but when I read it, I felt like someone had looked at a page in my diary and wrote it out, or looked into my head and showed me what I was feeling. It's an amazing song.
    NoCryingLPSon January 09, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General CommentAh, my theme song.
    lil_angelkyoon August 13, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentTo me, this song means how everyone wants be by themselves at one point or another. They want to be alone because either they're mad at someone, someone is mad at them and they can't bear the burden of having someone of that stature mad at them, or some other unknown reason. For whatever reason it may be, that person does not the whole world to see them, for any reason at all. I know, personally, I can relate to this song, and every other song on the Hybrid Theory LP, because my family is constantly making me mad and I always wanna be left alone when I'm at home; so this song is nothing new to me. Or any other teens for that matter. I LOVE THIS SONG TOTALLY!!!!!!
    luv4linkinon November 26, 2001   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis song is fucking awesome, the Linkin Boyz really outdid themselves on this one, it should be their next single!!
    PuNKrAWkHAWk183on January 11, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis song has a strong meaning to me.. I am what is called bi-polar.. it is a chronic depression that i was diagnosed with.. *shrugs* the lyrics in this song truely shows the pain that life can deal out on your front door..
    Tariaon January 14, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI THINK THAT THIS SONG IS ABOUT SOMEONE WHO ISN'T SURE ABOUT THEMSELF; LIKE THEY'RE CONFUSED OR SOMETHING.
    LINKINPARKon January 21, 2002   Link

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