i was counting
the good things about this city
the only good thing is you are not here
when you're around it
makes it hard to be what i need to be
i was trying to breathe
i was dying to breathe
i was hoping i'd never
have to write this song again
the kind of song that makes
you want to hang
your headached - head
and i was hoping
that i would never fall in love again
'cause that would be the end
of everything (you're everything)
my parents fell in love
and all i got was life
and all i ever wanted
was to not be alone
i've been wearing this new outfit called
"quit while you're ahead"
your smiles the end
your eyes are the end
i was hoping i would never
have to write this song again
the kind of song
that makes you want to
hang your headached - head
and i was hoping
that i would never fall in love again
'cause that would be the end
of everything (you're everything)
just hang your head
just close your eyes
just hide your heart
hide your heart
i believe that when i'm gone
my love will live in song
this is not where i wanted to be
i believe that when i'm gone
my love will live in song
this is not the life i wanted to live
i wanted to live


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    General CommentIn my opinion, this song is about someone who has been burned very badly. All of their past relationships have left them afraid to love again. They have been so hurt that they do not want to ever love again. However, it seems as if this person has fallen in love again. He doesn't want to love the person, but he can't help it. "you're everything." He thinks that all is lost because he has found love again. He tells the person not to love him, that they should run away. He has hurt to many people, he can't bare the guilt and the pain again. At the end of the song he acknowledges that this behavior isn't necessarily healthy. He wonders why he behaves the way he does. He feels like he has died, like he has lost it all. He wants to be somewhere else, but it is too hard for him to get there. All he wanted to do was live, but he feels like he has destroyed the possibility of that for himself.
    PorcelainHopeon June 20, 2002   Link
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    General CommentThere was a point in time where just about every American Nightmare song wrote my life... Pure emotion, pure adrenaline. This is not emo, it is hardcore. But sometime I get the feeling that these song are more emotional then any Indian Summer song I've ever heard... I think that maybe he isn't afraid of love and being in love again, but rather he might hate it, and objects all love... I'll get back to you on this song.
    Assuck 555on June 30, 2002   Link
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    General CommentI was at hellfest this wknd in NY, and I think he said this song was about his mother.
    emocoreon July 20, 2002   Link
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    General CommentI was at hellfest too, and he did say it was about his mother
    comforton September 27, 2002   Link
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    General Commentthis could so easily be one of those songs sung by an emo band, but this is so much better than any whiney assed kid could ever cry about on an acoustic guitar.
    this song is definately about his mother
    H2OGOPunxon October 09, 2002   Link
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    General CommentAlot of hardcore songs have "emo" lyrics, but the point is that this is an awesome song and the line i've been wearing this new outfit called
    "quit while you're ahead"
    is and awesome line, I love it and it would never be in some pansy emo song, it's too brutally honest, I love American Nightmare, or actually Give Up The Ghost now, and I don't care how whiny you think they're lyrics are do not call them Emo, Screamo, or Emocore, I hate how we feel the need to group music that specifically, it's fucking Rock
    Renie1234on June 20, 2003   Link
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    General CommentThis song is hardcore and it sucks. No matter what this band changes their name to, they will still blow.
    APartOfMeDieson June 20, 2003   Link
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    General Commenta part if u dies because give up the ghost killed it faggot, they rock.... period
    imoveritfoshoon May 08, 2004   Link
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    General CommentThis is by far my favorite AN song. This is hardcore. The lyrics are emotional, but who cares. Still good no matter what their name is.
    TomThrasheron June 04, 2004   Link
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    General CommentI don't understand why American Nightmare/Give Up The Ghost doesn't just go back and re-record all their songs exactly the same, except replacing every instance of the word 'love' with the word 'bugs'. It would be a lot funnier!
    EvanTon January 18, 2006   Link

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