This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
See all the people- Longing to be
Living their lives regretlessly
Trying to repress the pain in their lives
Reassuring themselves- Living with lies
No way to break through- Not on my own
Can't push away all the sorrow I've known
Have to release every thought or care
And take control life is a dare
I can start over today
Live my life a different way
Can't I find a way to erase bad times to make
Everything OK
I'll start over and live- Every single day
Regrets and memories- No remorse- No apologies
No reason for me to despair- No future at all
Ask if I care
I got time- On my side- Twenty four hours in my life
Can't hang on to what's in my past
Full speed ahead- Hard and fast
At the end with each dropping sun
Can't erase what has been done who cares
What happened long ago- I don't want to know
Can't face tomorrow with these thoughts
Of yesterday
I can't escape the lies and make them go away
Wish I had the answers to help me make it through
Can't shake these images no matter what I do
I guess I'll use them to make a stronger man
I'll use each
Twisted tortured memory to help me understand
And I will learn
From mistakes that everyone makes- I've got
To find a way
I guess I'll have to live with them- every single day
Living their lives regretlessly
Trying to repress the pain in their lives
Reassuring themselves- Living with lies
No way to break through- Not on my own
Can't push away all the sorrow I've known
Have to release every thought or care
And take control life is a dare
I can start over today
Live my life a different way
Can't I find a way to erase bad times to make
Everything OK
I'll start over and live- Every single day
Regrets and memories- No remorse- No apologies
No reason for me to despair- No future at all
Ask if I care
I got time- On my side- Twenty four hours in my life
Can't hang on to what's in my past
Full speed ahead- Hard and fast
At the end with each dropping sun
Can't erase what has been done who cares
What happened long ago- I don't want to know
Can't face tomorrow with these thoughts
Of yesterday
I can't escape the lies and make them go away
Wish I had the answers to help me make it through
Can't shake these images no matter what I do
I guess I'll use them to make a stronger man
I'll use each
Twisted tortured memory to help me understand
And I will learn
From mistakes that everyone makes- I've got
To find a way
I guess I'll have to live with them- every single day
Lyrics submitted by x_melancholy_x
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