This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Yeah it's a snow white original mix and she's fixing me
And the heartless thing she does is everything I love
It's all I ever need
Yeah it's a skin tight sensational strip and she's tripping me
And the shameless way she turns
Is all I ever dream
You ask me why I use it
It could be just a way to pass the time
I never really choose it
It's just another play to lose
My mind
Yeah it's a bright light promotional taste and she's wasting me
And the tearless time she breaks is everytime I ache
It's all I ever feel
You ask me why I need it
It's maybe just a way to pass the time
I never really mean it
It's just another play to lose
My mind
Yeah it's a big night emotional kill and she's thrilling me
And the careless way she hurts
Is all I ever scream
You ask me why I take it
It could be just a way to pass the time
I never really make it
It's just another play to lose
I'm coming up in the dark
And every part of me is bruised and raw and pained
I'm coming up in the dark
And every part of me is loose and sore and stained
And so I play it when I use it if I need it then I take it
And I play it all again
And then I hold you so cold you like I know you
Yeah like I always know and like I always lose
My mind my mind
Yeah I play it when I use it if I need it then I take it
And I play it all again and then I hold you so cold you
Like I know you
Yeah like I always know and like I always lose
Yeah like I always lose
Like I always lose
My mind
And the heartless thing she does is everything I love
It's all I ever need
Yeah it's a skin tight sensational strip and she's tripping me
And the shameless way she turns
Is all I ever dream
You ask me why I use it
It could be just a way to pass the time
I never really choose it
It's just another play to lose
My mind
Yeah it's a bright light promotional taste and she's wasting me
And the tearless time she breaks is everytime I ache
It's all I ever feel
You ask me why I need it
It's maybe just a way to pass the time
I never really mean it
It's just another play to lose
My mind
Yeah it's a big night emotional kill and she's thrilling me
And the careless way she hurts
Is all I ever scream
You ask me why I take it
It could be just a way to pass the time
I never really make it
It's just another play to lose
I'm coming up in the dark
And every part of me is bruised and raw and pained
I'm coming up in the dark
And every part of me is loose and sore and stained
And so I play it when I use it if I need it then I take it
And I play it all again
And then I hold you so cold you like I know you
Yeah like I always know and like I always lose
My mind my mind
Yeah I play it when I use it if I need it then I take it
And I play it all again and then I hold you so cold you
Like I know you
Yeah like I always know and like I always lose
Yeah like I always lose
Like I always lose
My mind
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