This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
You are sickened by the weakness
Of a heart that's filled with fear
And if the world won't understand you
You can make it disappear
'Cause there's a dark secret
Carry with you
Carry with you
And deep inside, the way you hate them
On the outside, doesn't show
And oh, they think that they defy you
They are slaved to what you know
It's a dark secret
Carry with you
Carry with you
And it's a dark secret
Carry with you
Carry with you
And it's a dark secret
Carry with you
Carry with you
It's a dark secret
Carry with you
It's a dark secret
Carry with you
It's a dark secret
Carry with you (dark secret)
Of a heart that's filled with fear
And if the world won't understand you
You can make it disappear
'Cause there's a dark secret
Carry with you
Carry with you
And deep inside, the way you hate them
On the outside, doesn't show
And oh, they think that they defy you
They are slaved to what you know
It's a dark secret
Carry with you
Carry with you
And it's a dark secret
Carry with you
Carry with you
And it's a dark secret
Carry with you
Carry with you
It's a dark secret
Carry with you
It's a dark secret
Carry with you
It's a dark secret
Carry with you (dark secret)
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Otherwise why mention their weakness? They sneer at people with the strength to live responsibly with self respect ...And if the world won't understand you You can make it disappear
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