In my head I found you there
And running around and following me
But you don't oh, dare, now
But I find that I have, now, more
Then I ever wanted too

So maybe Thomas Jefferson wasn't born
In your back yard like you have said and
Maybe I'm just the horizon you run to when she has left you
there, you, are here in my head and
Running around and calling me
Come back
I'll show you the roses and brush off the snow and
Open their petals again and again and you know that
Apple Green icecream can melt in your hands I can't so...

I, I held your hand at the fair and
Even forgot what time it was
And even Thomas Jefferson wasn't born
In your backyard like you have said and
Maybe I'm just the horizon you run to
When she has left you and me alone on the floor,
You're counting my feathers as the bells toll
You see the bow and the belt and the girl from the south all
Fav'rite of mine you know them all well
And spring brings fresh little puddles that makes it all clear
makes it all...
Hey, do you know, hey do you know, what this is doing to me?
Here in my head.


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  • +1
    My Opinioni really love tori amos and all of her songs but this is one of my favourites!all that you people said above it's true it's all about loving someone who is not into you as much as you are i love the verse"I held your hand at the fair and
    Even forgot what time it was ",us women keep those little moments inside even though we know deep inside that maybe sometimes we are just "the horizon you run to when she has left you" but we still hope that we are the ones who can change their love.im soory if this is just too feministic wiew but i really think of her lyrics in a feminist way.and sorry for my english:)
    springhazeon April 10, 2009   Link
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    General CommentI am a bit surprised at the interpretations thus far. To me, it is clear that the speaker in the song is remembering a childhood friend--probably of the opposite sex. They were probably neighbors. He lied a little bit to impress her; his mother neglected him, so he spent alot of time with her. They're under the table, going through a box of her treasures. She also remembers them at a fair they may not have ever gone to...I don't know, nothing seems grownup about the song except for the speaker, who is remembering being a child, and being best friends with a little boy she loved in more than one way--a brother, lover, friend, father...
    nanobodyon July 20, 2009   Link
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    General CommentFeeling attracted and drawn toward somebody who is ultimately not available.
    Mvskokeon October 07, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentNot only are the unavailable, they'll never be yours. They're stuck in your head and you have no other choice but be haunted by them..
    EmoKiddieon October 13, 2002   Link
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    General CommentI think this is a song about how she loves someone and revels in every moment she can be with them, but she cannot have them for her own. It's like... unrequited love at its worst because the person is always in her head.
    toriamosfanon June 20, 2003   Link
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    General CommentI think it's someone that's leading her on... he tells her all these big stories (Thomas Jefferson) but ultimately she's just the runner up, she's just the horizon he runs to when the other she (his girlfriend? ex? wife?) has gone.
    vivadixiesubon April 19, 2004   Link
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    General Commentthis song is about her loving someone who uses her as a backup for his relationships. it makes me feel sad, but i still love it!
    kandi mayon May 17, 2004   Link
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    General CommentOne of the best Tori Amos songs... mmm I totally agree with it being about unrequited love... he leads her on but doesn't have her in mind. She's only there when he has nothing else.
    zebeeon June 10, 2005   Link
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    General CommentIt's about being used...the guy's got a girlfriend, and she's just "the horizon you run to when she has left you"...so she doesn't mean that much to him, he's ultimately just using her, yet he's constantly in her head...she adores him. the way she wails "hey, do you know know what this is doing to me, here in my head?" is so emotional it's spine chilling, shows how much he means to her, how much he's taken over her...

    He's lying to her: "So maybe Thomas Jefferson wasn't born in your back yard, like you have said...", and she doesn't mean anything to him compared to what he means to her. Sometimes he'll have her, sometimes not. "i found you there...but you don't oh dare now..." It's a painful situation.
    missmeon April 04, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI'm sure, too, he's been telling her big tales, he's just using her up, and all in all, he's really not worth it, etc. But still... Just when she thought she's gotten over him, thoughts of him pop up in her mind and she can't help but wishing she could have him back to her. Arg.
    And the music is just sooo perfectly fitting...!
    medea347on January 20, 2009   Link

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