All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
It's my mouth that pushes out this breath

And if I shed a tear, I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage, I won't deny it
I won't fear love

Companion to our demons
They will dance and we will play
With chairs, candles, and cloth
Making darkness in the day
It will be easy to look in or out
Upstream or down without a thought

And if I shed a tear, I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage, I won't deny it
I won't fear love

Peace in the struggle
To find peace
Comfort on the way
To comfort

And if I shed a tear, I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage, I won't deny it
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
I won't fear love

And if I shed a tear, I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage, I won't deny it
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
I won't fear love

And if I shed a tear, I won't cage it
I won't fear love


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    I think this song brilliantly and beautifully describes the feeling of very unexpectedly becoming comfortable in your own skin, and accepting yourself for who you are, and damn the world.

    "Peace in the struggle to find peace/Comfort on the way to comfort."

    I'm gay, and this song really helped me come to terms with who I am and realize I deserve love too.

    mikeygoestohollywoodon August 12, 2011   Link

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