"Fumbling Towards Ecstasy" as written by and Mclachlan/marchand....
All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore.
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh.
It's my mouth that pushes out this breath

And if I shed a tear I won't cage it.
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage I won't deny it.
I won't fear love.

Companion to our demons
They will dance and we will play.
With chairs candles and clothes
Making darkness in the day.
It will be easy to look in or out
Upstream or down
Without a thought

And if I shed a tear I won't cage it.
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage I won't deny it.
I won't fear love.

Peace in the struggle to find peace.
Comfort on the way to comfort

And if I shed a tear I won't cage it.
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love.
I won't fear love.
I won't fear love


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"Fumbling Towards Ecstasy" as written by Sarah Mclachlan Pierre Marchand

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  • +4
    General CommentPlacing this song right after "Fear" to close the album was -- I have to hand it to Sarah -- one of the most beautiful feats ever performed by a singer-songwriter. You just do not see that every day.
    raffishtenant2on November 07, 2007   Link
  • +2
    General CommentI agree with the people who have said that this song is about giving in to your lover and not being afraid. It's just about reaching the step where you are able to surpass the fear. Give in to desire and temptation and reach that fulfillment, without guilt. I also agree that having sex to this song with someone that you are absolutly in love with would be beautiful and relaxing. Intoxicate yourself with love, don't be afraid.
    cay15on April 23, 2006   Link
  • +2
    General CommentThis is like listening to a story unraveling. Following the song 'Fear' on the album, 'Fumbling Towards Ecstasy' starts with "all the fear has left me now...". Even the gut wrenching mood of Fear is uptight whereas Fumbling is so much more relaxed. Both beautiful songs. She lets go of fear in Fumbling.
    brokentelephone78on September 06, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song is great: a poets wonderland. The first four stanzas which includes "my mouth, my heart" means that love is after all a personal experience occurring for the modt part inside of us so there is nothing to fear. The second four stanzas refer to not containing tears and rage. These emotions gives 3D to the experience of loving. "Companions to our demons"- fear itself is just one more demon that lurks throughout our daily lives. But this one makes darness out of the day. (day or sunlight being a methaphor for happiness) And happiness should be the result of love. Also creativity is an end product of love (we will play with chairs, candles and cloth). Once unincumbered by fear, it would be easy to look to the future or past (upstream or down) without regret. And lastly, since love is an ongoing journey or struggle, peace and comfort escort us along the way.
    Xperimentgonawryon January 04, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI think this song brilliantly and beautifully describes the feeling of very unexpectedly becoming comfortable in your own skin, and accepting yourself for who you are, and damn the world.

    "Peace in the struggle to find peace/Comfort on the way to comfort."

    I'm gay, and this song really helped me come to terms with who I am and realize I deserve love too.
    mikeygoestohollywoodon August 12, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThose who fear love, know not what to fear, for love will hurt you and bring you to tears, but it will make you grow and your soul will smile forever. This song is about letting go of your fear of getting hurt in love....love might hurt...but it rejoices the human spirit!
    catvoogdon June 04, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Comment... but what does the second stanza mean? "companion to our demons... chair, candle, and cloth.."?

    Third Stanza - "Peace in the struggle to find peace" I think this line and the next refer to it being OK to be permiscuous. Sure, it might not be true love, but it might develop inot that, and if nothing else, it will remind you of what you are searching/fumbling towards.
    dhavalon June 17, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentYeah, I'm kinda curius about the sentences with the hold 'demons' thing.. But I guess it's about getting rid of all the 'bad things' or 'bad thoughts' you might once have had.. Just, you know.. Learning how to be your own self..
    Adiaon August 06, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Commentat first i really dont give much favor to this song coz i like the song fear more but after a while, the line "i wont fear love" kept on playing inside me. after playing the song over and over did i finally accepted that yup- im ready for love.

    to me, the demons in a way represented what i felt on the song "fear". the fear of not giving anything in return, the fear of unfamiliarity. after i "danced" with my demons did i understand what the song is all about.

    i think that the playing with the demons is about the idea that, yes you now wont fear love but you would also entertain the demons in your head in the process. maybe it is in admitiing and accepting that there are demons (fears, insecurities, hangups, etc) inside you that you get to be in the road to love. i mean you just can't wake up one day saying "i dont fear love anymore." it is in accepting and dealing that there are demons in you that you would, well, fumble towards ecstasy.

    just my opinion :)
    gabe_phon September 23, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI think that this song is about learning to accept everything that comes with love... including all of the bad things. You have become afraid of love because bad things have happened when you loved someone, and you feel as though love is painful and you become afraid of it. This song is about growing and becomign strong and realizing that love isn't perfect -- that it CAN'T be perfect.
    miss moon March 10, 2003   Link

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