This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I kneel before the green light
Of her singing crayon eyes
And then I kiss her stomach
And it's then I realize:
Her light is the night
I'm not blind, I believe in you
I see a green light
I see a green light
I see a green light
Of her singing crayon eyes
And then I kiss her stomach
And it's then I realize:
Her light is the night
I'm not blind, I believe in you
I see a green light
I see a green light
I see a green light
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I think your first comment is closer to being accurate. The singer/song writers state "Millions of eyes can see, yet why am i so blind!? When the someone else is me, its unkind its unkind". I believe hes referring to the girl toying with him and using him. He wants something deeper with her, thats why he allows himself to be as a puppet (even though for her fun and games) as long as it makes her happy. But he knows deep down that she doesnt really want to be serious with him and thats what makes him.
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"a single green light, minute and faraway, that might have been the end of a dock." -The Great Gatsby
if you've read The Great Gatsby then you see all of the connections and ties to it in this song:
"I kneel before the green light of her singing crayon eyes" in the book the green light represented Gatsby's view of Daisy and how she was the gateway to all of his dreams about the happiness he had once felt with her. And then JT Eckleburge's eyes on the bill board represented God (or something ubiquitous) that watched over the Valley of Ashes and the moral decay of society due to the "American dream."
"and then i kiss her stomach and it's then i realize her light is the night" Gatsby would stare at the green light on the end of Daisy's dock (her home) and one day Nick (the narrator) saw him doing this and reaching out his hand at the same time as if trying to reach for Daisy who was all the way across the lake.
"i'm not blind" Daisy was very aware of her trophy wife position in life and once said (about having a baby girl) "I hope she'll be a fool--that's the best thing a girl can be in this world, a beautiful little fool... You see, I think everything's terrible anyhow... And I know. I've been everywhere and seen everything and done everything."
"i believe in you" this could relate to what Nick commented about Gatsby's smile: "He smiled understandingly-much more than understandingly. It was one of those rare smiles with a quality of eternal reassurance in it, that you may come across four or five times in life. It faced--or seemed to face--the whole external world for an instant, and then concentrated on you with an irresistible prejudice in your favor. It understood you just as far as you wanted to be understood, believed in you as you would like to believe in yourself."
"i see a green light i see a green light i see a green light" I see this relating to (because of the repetition) how Gatsby was set on the fact that Daisy was his means to an end for acheiving the "American Dream" (common theme in the book) and how he so badly wanted to feel the way he once did with her when he was young; "Can’t repeat the past?…Why of course you can!" -Gatsby
i can think of two possible sources of inspiration for the green light thurston refers to in this song. the first and perhaps most cogent of the two is famous scene from hitchcock’s vertigo in which madeline walks into the hazy green light and scottie believes she is his dead lover (‘I believe in you’). The other green light is from the great gatsby. the green light comes from the end of daisy’s dock and comes to represent gatsby’s love for daisy. perhaps thurston was inspired by both of these green lights.
Ok I am just going to pick this song to comment on EVOL's conceptual unity. It explores aberrations of love not love itself. Hence EVOL.
I believe Thurston is saying, that before him and his girlfriend do anything, well...sex like, he wants to get the okay, and i think the okay in this song is the green light, and he believes in her, is he believes her, and it's alright.
i think you nailed it!
i love the line "im not blind, i believe in you"
Wrong.
i agree, mcbeans wrong, alot of sonic youths songs have slight references to drugs, so possibly 'crayon' is how he is describing her eyes at that time? just a thought.
you see a greenlight when you smoke the right thing i am pretty sure thurston talks here about drugs i have seen this green light too
I completely love this song. I wish Sonic Youth would give me the tabs for it. I never thought of it like what Garage Band Kind8 said but I like him for saying it. I think mybaboonheart might've nailed it. Sonic Youth definitely have a lot of Hitchcock references in their songs (Shadow of a Doubt).