"Closer to Fine" as written by Amy Elizabeth Ray and Emily Ann Saliers....
I'm tryin' to tell you somethin' 'bout my life.
Maybe give me insight between black and white.
And the best thing you've ever done for me
Is to help me take my life less seriously.
It's only life after all.

Well darkness has a hunger that's insatiable,
And lightness has a call that's hard to hear.
I wrap my fear around me like a blanket.
I sailed my ship of safety till I sank it.
I'm crawling on your shores.

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain.
There's more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in a crooked line.
And the less I seek my source for some definitive,
The closer I am to fine. The closer I am to fine.

I went to see the Doctor of Philosophy
With a poster of Rasputin and a beard down to his knee.
He never did marry or see a B-Grade movie.
He graded my performance, he said he could see through me.
I spent four years prostrate to the higher mind,
Got my paper and I was free.

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain.
There's more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in a crooked line.
And the less I seek my source for some definitive,
The closer I am to fine. The closer I am to fine.

I stopped by the bar at three A.M.
To seek solace in a bottle, or possibly a friend.
I woke up with a headache like my head against a board,
Twice as cloudy as I'd been the night before.
And I went in seeking clarity.

I woke up with a headache like my head against a board,
Twice as cloudy as I'd been the night before.
And I went in seeking clarity.
I go to the doctor, we go to the mountains.
We look to the children, we drink from the fountain.
We go to the Bible, we go through the work out.
We read up on revival, we stand up for the lookout.
There's more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in a crooked line.
And the less I seek my source, the closer I am to fine.


Lyrics submitted by aur0ra

"Closer to Fine" as written by Amy Elizabeth Ray, Emily Ann Saliers

Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

Lyrics powered by LyricFind


Closer to Fine song meanings
Add your thoughts

23 Comments

sort form View by:
  • +2
    General CommentWhen I first came out of the closet, I made it my life mission to look for songs that best describe what I was feeling...no other song best describes that than this one. It ROCKS!

    Basically, the song is about a gay person's life and how he/she yearns for the world to understand his/her life. The Indigo Girls are speaking in behalf of the the gay peeps when they wrote this song, and it has now become my personal anthem to anyone who's opposed to, or are continuously questioning, my life .

    Let's break it down by stanza:
    1.Basically,the person in this stanza (who happens to be gay) is saying that he has taken his life more seriously, simply because of al the homophobia, ignorance and gay hate crimes.

    2. Brilliant description of being in the closet--hiding (darkness is a hunger, meaning you get used to the false comfort of pretending you're not gay) your true sexuality and negelceting the urgency of coming out (light has a call that's hard to hear), feeling "safe" till you can't take the pretence anymore (till I sank it ), being contrlled by fear (wrapped around you like a blanket)----sad but true, and extremely well thought of.

    3,5,7.You know how some people actully try and find WHY some people are gay? This stanza says---"WHO CARES??"---People looked for answers everywhere; doctors, preachers, the bible---they searched high and low for causes and the moral implications---but if the world just focuses A LOT LESS on the why's and how's and just let us live our life the same way straight people do, then the closer we'll all be to inner and outer peace.

    4. I think the gay persona was consulting an elderly gay person who had it tough; he knew exactly what the person was going through, and can even see through his pretensions and lies. And the singer learned so much from him that he decided to come out---and because of that, he felt free.
    6. This one is more literal; the dperession of being in a closet has taken a toll on him, and he now wants to find solace---that's is EXTREMELY hard to do. :)

    God, I love this song. Indigo Girls ROCK!!
    Buffy828on September 04, 2005   Link
  • +2
    General CommentThis is NOT about GAY PEOPLE or COMING OUT of the closet!!! I love this song too, it's chords and simple playing style is awesome, besides it sounding great on the guitar. But you are wrong when you say it's about gay people or coming out. On songfacts.com/…
    it quotes an interview with Emily Saliers, who wrote the song, who said the "song is about not beating yourself up too hard to get your answer from one place. There's no panacea, that in order to be balanced or feel closer to fine it's okay to draw from this or to draw from that, to draw from a bunch of different sources. So it's about being confused but looking for the answers, and in the end knowing that you're going to be fine. No seeking just one definitive answer."

    So it's about the confusion of life itself and trying to find answers to the questions of life, and instead just let it be and live.
    Majorlyon December 27, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThey are trying to tell you to quit finding meaning with life. It only will make you questioning more and dig you deeper into a pit of sorrow.

    Instead, we should live it up because it is "just a life". Don't look to God, exercise, Tibet, therapy, or some magic potion to make your life worthwhile. Get out there and have a blast and quit preoccupying your mind with what might make you happy and enjoy life's ups and downs.
    cactusdaveon September 03, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General CommentTo me this song reminds me of a quote about Taoism. ""The tao that can be named is not the true tao"" To me we search for all the answers in higher education( spent four years prostrate to the higher mind Got my paper and I was free) Finding answers in a bottle or other people, in children, in dr's ,psychiatrists , religion, exercise and the more we look - the further we become from the answer. Maybe the answer is just to BE and we might be closer to fine.

    My favorite line in the song?
    Well darkness has a hunger that's insatiable
    And lightness has a call that's hard to hear
    It is so true - the darkness -if it be depression,sadness, or cynism, fear or other darkness is so much easier to to choose. It has a hunger that overpowers and consumes everything in it's wake. The lightness's call is much harder to hear.
    10000stoneson June 19, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI'm trying to figure out who, precisely, she's talking to.
    StacyLBon July 10, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI think she may be either talking to a really good friend or a lover. I think she is talking about how we shouldn't take life so seriously, its only life after all! If you spend your entire life trying to figure everything out, you'll miss alot along the way and probably end up more confused about life than you were to begin with. There is more than one answer to 'life' questions. We should live our lives instead of worrying whether or not we're living the right way!
    toriwori_7on August 13, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentRemember there's a whole lot about god in here too. Which shows that being gay and being religious do not exclude one another.
    Smokleron December 04, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Comment"There's more then one answer to these questions pointing me in a crooked line..."
    Me in a nutshell!
    Great song, made me like the Indigo Girls.
    rockalicious_13on February 11, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Commentthis is a kick-ass song, i love it! somehow i don't think it's about being straight or gay, it seems more like it's just trying to say that if you are constantly trying to find out what the point to life is you are missing it! god, it's such a great song!
    kindraon March 27, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI love this song. Why? Because it pretty much says in a few paragraphs how I feel right now.

    A few people have already said this, but basically this song is about coming out of the closet.
    The first verse to me, is the singer talking to her partner. The singer in this verse has been trying to ignore the fact that she's gay, but she's suddenly found this amazing person who has helped her accept who she is. She was caught up in defining what her sexuality was and this person helped her calm down about all that.

    And for a while, she was in the closet, not an easy place to be -
    "Well darkness has a hunger that's insatiable"
    And it's definitely NOT easy to come out, so many fears -
    "And lightness has a call that's hard to hear"
    By hard to hear, I think she means it's sometimes hard to decide why to come out because you get caught up in the "oh my gosh, everyone is going to know and then hate me" factor.

    The last two lines, I really like.
    "I sailed my ship of safety till I sank it
    I'm crawling on your shores"
    She had been able to hide her sexuality and ignore her feelings...until she finally met a person that she couldn't ignore. Such a good metaphor here.

    The chorus is her looking for answers as to why she's gay. She goes to counseling, maybe off somewhere to think about it. Maybe thinks back to her childhood.
    But she soon finds sexuality is not usually something one can define easily.
    "There's more than one answer to these questions
    Pointing me in a crooked line"

    And the next part is really awesome to me.
    "And the less I seek my source for some definitive
    (The less I seek my source)
    The closer I am to fine
    The closer I am to fine"

    It's so true. For me, I had been caught up defining my sexuality, trying to figure it out, but the less I think about it and the more I just live my life, being myself, the closer I am to fine.

    This song is so amazing. Can't wait to go see the Indigo Girls in concert!
    yepon June 23, 2007   Link

Add your thoughts

Log in now to tell us what you think this song means.

Don’t have an account? Create an account with SongMeanings to post comments, submit lyrics, and more. It’s super easy, we promise!

Back to top
explain